The perks of being in Love

I Tried

When two people are meant for each other, no time is too long, no distance is too far, and no one can ever tear them apart. Sarah was closer to me than ever, yet too far. I was scared, I was scared of losing her. We are all broken from the inside, some are less broken, some are more broken. We all caught feelings for someone we wish we haven't .We are always in this fear of being avoided by the only person we care about.
I had always tried to understand her, I noticed even the slightest change in her behaviour whenever I was around her. I had always tried to know if she has a little feeling for me in her heart that would give me some hope. People are so difficult to understand, they hide their true self, and this is actually how we survive, this is how it works.
Sarah knew about my outings in the weekends and she always had wished to set out with me someday in the middle of night to the middle of nowhere.
"Get things up quickly, we are three today, Sarah is coming too".
I told Chico who was preparing his car up for the long drive we always have had on weekends.
Chico was surprised, yet happy for me. While driving to pick Sarah up, he asked me.
"So finally jug it is the day,
Are you .....you know what I mean jug..Are you thinking what I am thinking?"
"I have mixed feelings Chico, I am scared she does not feel the way i feel", I told him.
"Girls never admit they like you,
They just start talking to you everyday".
Chico tried to give me some hope.
We crossed the town bridge, and now we were right before her door.
She came out few moments after i texted her. I climbed down the car to fetch her, She was wearing black and i barely could see into her face. The first time i saw her in school, she was wearing black back then. There are always reasons, we fall for someone. May be that black dress was the reason I fell for her beacause she looked so beautiful that day in that dress.
We were in the car and we were on the top of the town bridge with Chico driving and her sitting in between us. The town bridge was contructed so beautifully, we could easily have had the beautiful view of the town from the top of that bridge, and in the night it looked even more beautiful.
What is your favourite song?
She asked me our way down the bridge.
"Between the bars"
I said
Play it for me, she said.
I played the song.
Listening to my favourite song with her sitting so near to me, my heart started beating harder than ever. She at once would change my moods. Having someone who can handle all your moods is such a blessing.
"Oh jug! I am loving every bit of this song, saying this she stood up, spreading both of her hands sidewise with her face towards the sky. The wind shook her shiny black hair.
I looked her and she seemed so beautiful in that moment. I wished this was forever.
Its true we will all become photographs someday, we will all become somebody's mom and dad. But right now, these moments are not stories. This is happening, I am here, I am looking at her and she is so beautiful. I can see it. This one moment when you know you are not a sad story, You are a life and you stand up and stand beside her and grab her hand and see the lights on the buildings and everything that makes you wonder and you are listening to that song and that drive with the people you love most in this world. And this moment, I swear we are infinite.
When you love someone truly, the whole universe conspires to get her/him to you. I was realising it and that moment had something special in it for me and that song and that black dress and Chico and her being so beautiful and those lights on the buildings and her hand in my hand, all these beautiful things had gathered in me this courage and I felt like that wonderful moment was conspiring on getting me closer to her, I felt like being unconscious and lost control over my feelings. It felt like everything there was floating and like we were stucked there forever. Thinkig like that beautiful moment was forever, I felt my arms around her neck, and my fingers running through her hair, I heard myself telling her,
" Sarah! You are the most beautiful and the most special person that has happened to me in my life. I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we're just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eyes too, and I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh. I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that's what I wish for you. For you to be happy, and when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you so I can see a smile on your face.
       She did not protest my arms around her neck and my fingers running through her hair, I felt hope, the hope of love. We all live on some kind of hope. A mere bit of hope from the person we love can change whole of our fate.The moment you feel this hope,Love would no more be a menace, rather it would be the most beautiful feeling in the world and in that moment I could feel the beauty of love, the beauty of hope, the beauty of being loved by the only person you love most in this world. When you feel this hope, you feel courage and you stand up and you cover her face with your hands and you look into her eyes and in those deep eyes you feel like being lost, and I swear this is madness, a madness where you run your finger through her lips, and you kiss her so deeply till you get through that madness. And in this moment, I swear this is the most beautiful feeling in the world.
       How strange, I was near to her more than ever, I could feel her heart beats, I could hear her breaths, I could smell the sweats on her neck, How strange, when you keep away all your fears, all your skeptics, and you stand beside her, and confess to the love of your life. Believe me Love is heavier to all the feelings out there, it brings in you the confidence to stand against all the fears, all the skeptics, to stand beside her and feel her, the more you feel her, the more the love gets stronger, and in this moment, I swear her existence is the only thing that overcomes your whole self. You feel nothing but her, all the worldly instruments suddenly stops, the whole universe stops, you feel like floating away, you feel like losing your existence. The only thing that spares you from floating away alongside all the other material things, is her, is her being so close at the moment. This is the moment where you feel she is a blessing, love is a blessing, and you pull her towards you and you kiss her again,and again, and again, and till you get through your madness.
      People get high on weeds, people get high on drugs, I was high on emotions, I was high on her. I always had wished to confess to her, but not like this, not like by kissing her, I did not expect this. Unexpected kisses are always beautiful, and that day I unexpectedly kissed her like her lips were air and I could not breathe.
      Looking into side mirror of the car, I felt like everything was flowing my way, everything was just so beautiful, the road was beautiful, the stars, the sky and most specially that was a full moon night, and I could see the moon, and it felt like the road was leading towards the moon. A road to the moon is the most beautiful of all the imaginations, its merely an imagination though, still there is a chance there might exist somewher some road that leads to the moon.
Wolves are so much in love with the moon, when you love someone, you try every bit of it to reach out to him/her. Wolves may know the road to their love, they just dont want to unveil it, they just dont want to share it with the most ugliest creature of humans. This indeed is a true love that even after too many years, moon still is beautiful.