Wild hearts and other poems

Feelings

Anger, confusion, resentment.
Feelings of sadness and despair,
Wondering if he really even cared,
and what about all of those wonderful moments that we shared.
Laughing and talking all day and night,
Those special moments when it all seemed so right.
All that I know is that it seemed,
So real,
To feel,
His touch,
Seemed to be too much,
For me.
I thought that we would be together forever.
I thought that he would leave me never.
Were all of his promises nothing but lies?
Were they all just his little goodbyes?
I just don't understand why he had to go.
Maybe I will never know.
All I know is that I loved him so much.
All of my life I thought that I had to be tough.
Now, all that I dream,
About is his touch.
Were we in love?
Was it for real?
Is it so wrong to feel the way that I feel?
Is this what's really meant to be?
All that I want is to be free,
But I know very well,
That it's not in the cards,
Or even in the stars.
If this is what's meant to be,
Then why won't my heart set me free?
Let him be,
Go on with my life,
Just doesn't seem right.
My love for him was so true,
I just don't know what to do.
Do I just keep give up or keep holding on?
Do I even have the will and the strength to hold on?
Is he the one?