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3 - woke up next to him

Hyunjin wasn't a light sleeper persay, but he sleeps with his door open. Therefore, whenever Seungmin goes to the bathroom or gets water in the middle of the night, Hyunjin wakes up. Usually too sleepy to get up or call out, he just sits up for a second and then flops back down falling asleep again.

Yet, this time felt different. Hyunjin could see it in the way that Seungmin slumped to the bathroom. He could tell in the way that Seungmin turned on the light after closing the door. Hyunjin knew Seungmin's habits by now. He knew that sleepy Seungmin never remembered to close the door first as to not wake Hyunjin. The lights always turned on first, this wouldn't be concerning considering that Seungmin has sleepless nights too. Still this time seemed different, in the way Seungmin walked and only the sink water running. Seungmin filtered out of the bathroom in darkness, sniffing.

Sniffing? Has he been crying? Seungmin seemed to stop at his door a second. "Minnie? Are you awake?" He called out, the answer obvious, but groggy Hyunjin didn't care. Seungmin seemed to think for a moment before answering back.

"Yeah, Hyunjinnie. I'm sorry for waking you up," His voice was off, it seemed deeper. Maybe he was crying. Seungmin was hiding half his body behind the door frame, his head hanging low.

Hyunjin sleepily crawled out of bed, "What's wrong, baby?" He didn't really recognize the name that slipped out of his mouth and he was too tired to really care anyways. Seungmin seemed to hear it and he made a small choking sound.

His voice is so deep when he's sleepy, I forgot. He remembered how attractive his voice was, he couldn't have blushed he was immediately distracted. Seungmin was almost panicking to himself, hoping that Hyunjin didn't turn on the hall light and see his swollen face and bloodshot eyes. He had nightmares again, and they made him so sad. It wasn't the nightmares themselves, but the feeling of helplessness that overwhelmed him when he woke up triggered a depressive episode. He had been trying to muffle his cries into his pillow to not wake Hyunjin. He didn't want to bother him, considering he used to have insomnia. It started to go away the past couple of months naturally, without medication. Seungmin was thankful for that, he didn't like seeing his Hyunjin so tired.

"Nothing.... Nothing Hyunjin, I'm fine. Go back to bed, you'll miss rest," Seungmin tried to quickly open his door, but not until Hyunjin turned on the hall light. He shot his head down, covering his face with his arm. "Just go back to sleep." He turned to go into his room, but Hyunjin grabbed his shoulder spinning him around to face him.

"Min, are you crying? Wait. . . You are crying. What happened?" Hyunjin put his hand on Seungmin's cheek gently, making the younger boy face him eye to eye. His cheeks were pink, lips and eyes puffy. His nose was read, and the blood vessels in his eyes were strongly visible. "Oh, baby, come here. Tell me what happened." Hyunjin pulled the crying boy into his chest, his tears wetting the shoulder of his shirt.

"I just. . . had a nightmare, it's fine, Hyun. . . Hyunjin," Seungmin barely got the words out through the hiccups in his crying. He could barely breathe, he felt so sad and numb. Hyunjin rubbing his back softly with his hands made him want to pour everything out. "Actually. . . no, it isn't. I woke up feeling terrible and it triggered my depression. . . and I don't know, but I couldn't stop crying." Hyunjin squeezed him tighter, rocking them side to side. It was lulling and Seungmin started to calm down. When he had stopped crying completely, he let go of Hyunjin. Backing up, wiping his tears, he thanked him. His apology only was received with Hyunjin's head falling to the side in question.

Seungmin only saw Hyunjin's hand being held out for him, half of his body ready to go back into his room. Does he want me to go in there with him? It wasn't like the two boys had never cuddled or fallen asleep with each other, but never after such an emotional moment. Seungmin still took his hand, letting Hyunjin lead him into his room. He turned the light off in the hallway and lead Seungmin to one side of the bed, himself walking around to the other side.

Hyunjin was still sleepy, but not sleepy enough to be unaware of what he was doing. He wasn't sleepy enough to be unaware that Seungmin willingly crawled into his bed. He wasn't sleepy enough to be unaware that he pulled Seungmin into him, chest to chest. He wasn't sleepy enough to be unaware that Seungmin snuggled closer and smiled. He wasn't sleepy enough to be unaware his chest filled with warmth and his stomach with butterflies. He was sleepy enough to be unaware that it was the best both of the boys had slept in months.

The next day Seungmin woke up to a weird sort of ache in his body, his eyes feeling heavier than usual. He remembered how much he cried the night before and cringed, remembering Hyunjin hugging him until he stopped. They were best friends and that's normal, but that didn't stop Seungmin and his fat crush on Hyunjin from being embarrassed.

He finally opened his eyes, realizing that the weight on his waist wasn't a blanket. Hyunjin had his arm draped lightly over his side. Soft breathing coming from the boy that was still asleep. He didn't want to wake him up, and he really didn't mean to, but he just admired him for a while. His eyelashes, he just couldn't get over his eyelashes. His lips always seemed like they were formed into a pout, even when he was sleeping. His full cheeks and his cute nose and. . . Seungmin was whipped again.

Being smart, he didn't want to get caught staring so he reached over and grabbed his phone. Scrolling through twitter for a couple of minutes, until the sleeping boy next to him pulled him a little closer and tighter. Then, he had to switch to instagram, because he lost his attention span for twitter. Slowly, Hyunjin woke up and Seungmin chuckled a little before a deep 'good morning' escapes his mouth. Hyunjin grumbled a 'good morning' back before closing his eyes again and falling back asleep.

Seungmin thanked the universe for Hyunjin falling back asleep, he might have seen how red his cheeks and ears became. Especially when Hyunjin pulled him even closer.