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6 - Carried home

The way home was usual. It was late, the city traffic died down right as they got past main streets and onto the freeway. It was less than 10 minutes on the freeway home, so the boys weren't really worried about it. The time it took inside the busy city was what took so long to get home. The headlights of all the cars passing them by shone on Hyunjin's face, but he was dozing out of pure exhaustion. Seungmin scoffed to himself and shook his head. If there was one thing he knew better than anything else, it was Hyunjin. He knew Hyunjin would have been really on edge driving, worrying about falling asleep, but not wanting to get into a crash. Seungmin knew it would be better if he drove, and so he did.

He heard Hyunjin move a little in the passenger seat, he was trying to stay awake. Seungmin caught a look of him when he looked at his side mirrors, he was leaning against the window, eyes half closed, a soft smile adorning his lips. He felt something pull at his heart and Seungmin desperately wanted to pull the car over and kiss Hyunjin. When he started merging, he caught himself and stopped before he did something he regretted.

They made it home, Seungmin opening Hyunjin's car door. The boy had fallen asleep with half a coffee left. He smiles, Hyunjin looked really soft asleep. Seungmin fought the urge to kiss his nose. He berated himself in his head, Seungmin stop he doesn't like you, there's no reason for him to. He's been your best friend for years, there's no way he would fall for you. This isn't a dumb harry styles fanfiction you read when you were thirteen, this is serious. Seungmin lightly shook awake Hyunjin, knowing he couldn't carry the coffee and him. But when Hyunjin opened his eyes, Seungmin melted at the mess of the sleepy boy in front of him. He caved. He could make two trips.

Seungmin stood slightly crouched, his back towards Hyunjin. He waited, not wanting to say anything. For some reason, he felt like asking him if he could carry him was different. It felt too intimate, too sincere this time. It wasn't like this hadn't happened before. Both Hyunjin and Seungmin were of similar builds, they had almost equal muscle and height, Hyunjin barely surpassing Seungmin in both, so riding on each other's backs wasn't an issue.

Yet, Seungmin felt that the way Hyunjin's sleepy eyes and pouting lips affected him, that offering help would result in the absolute caving of Seungmin. He had to control himself, he wasn't going to kiss him. I'm not going to kiss him.

Seungmin repeated this in his head from the moment Hyunjin softly fell onto his back. From the car to the elevator, Hyunjin laid his head on Seungmin's shoulder sleepily, he could barely keep his own weight up. I'm not going to kiss him.

Hyunjin put his hand out in the elevator, barely awake, because he wanted to push the "4" to get to their floor. Seungmin leaned forward, and right after Hyunjin pushed the button he wrapped his arm around Seungmin again. I'm not going to kiss him.

When they got to their room, Seungmin struggled to open the door. As he pulled his keys out of his pocket finally, Hyunjin started to move seeing him struggling. He held on tighter, "Don't you dare, Hwang Hyunjin." Hyunjin stopped moving and hugged him tighter, "Okay, Seungminnie." I'm not going to kiss him.

"Hyunjin, couch or bed?" Seungmin asked him, knowing the boy was awake now. Seungmin turned his head to see Hyunjin looking at him from the side too. Their faces inches away from each other, Seungmin caught himself looking at his lips and had to turn his head away quickly. "Where are you going to be?" Hyunjin asked him. Seungmin smiled to himself, "Probably the couch. I think I'm going to finish my coffee and write some more of my book." He was going to watch a movie with Hyunjin like usual, but the boy was exhausted. He just wanted him to get rest. "Then couch." Hyunjin laid his head back down on Seungmin's shoulder. I'm not going to kiss him.

Seungmin sat him down slowly, leaving for a minute before coming back with Hyunjin's pillow and blanket. Helping make him as comfortable as possible since he didn't choose to rest in his own bed. The apartment was relatively quiet. Only the sound of two softly snoring dogs and cars passing by filled the silence, that is until Hyunjin spoke "where are you going?" Seungmin was already on his way to get the coffees and lock the car. "To the car, Hyunjinnie. The coffee." Hyunjin wrinkle his nose. "I'll just make you a better one." He smiled to himself. The boy was always trying to one up himself, it was cute. I'm not going to kiss him.

Seungmin left, becoming very aware of his surroundings. Parking structures at night weren't exactly the safest things. Thank goodness his apartment building was safe, full of neighbors that vowed to always keep an ear out. He got the coffee out of the car, and locked the doors. He already checked the backseat and the trunk, just in case. When he got in the elevator, he let out a big sigh. He was almost home, almost to Hyunjin. Nothing left to do. Seungmin finally entered his shared apartment, locking the door. He turned around to see the boy he was desperately in love with laying on the couch, eyes closed. I'm not going to kiss him.

He sat next to him placing both coffee drinks on the table in front of him. He thought for a minute and made up his mind. Taking a long swig of the drink, he set them down on the counters in the kitchen. He went straight to the cough and lifted Hyunjin up, taking his head. "What's going on?" So he wasn't asleep, that's good. "I'm not going to the couch, I'm sleeping early." Hyunjin looked confused. "Then why did you say couch?" He tilted his head to the side. I'm gonna lose my fucking mind if he pulls that shit. I'm not going to kiss him. I can't.

Seungmin looks away, his free hand immediately coming up the scratch the back of his neck. "I changed my mind, seeing you look so sleepy, I felt more tired just looking at you." Hyunjin seemed to think. "Okay, then you should go to sleep then. I don't want you to keep yourself up when you're tired." Seungmin looked at him closely in the eyes. Something was there and he couldn't read it. He was trying so hard to understand, but he couldn't. Something in his brown eyes seemed to glisten, they seemed bigger than usual to Seungmin. That's when Seungmin realized he was leaning in closer to him, without realizing it. He quickly backed up, letting go of Hyunjin's hand. His eyes were wide and his mouth covered by a hand. He almost kissed him. He'd been telling himself not to, but he almost did. I'm not going to kiss him.

There were no words spoken between the two, except expressions. Hyunjin looked deep in thought, like he didn't quite process what exactly just happened. He was sleeping ten minutes ago. Seungmin was trying to fight the tears that were pricking the edges of his eyes. He heard Hyunjin say "Don't freak out." Before Seungmin could ask, he felt hands on his cheeks and lips on his own. Hyunjin was kissing him, he pulled away before Seungmin could really savor it. Hyunjin looked at him, fear and concern in his eyes. Seungmin smiled and pulled him in to kiss him again, but softer. I kissed him.