Happy tears

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I don't know why I'm posting this. I shouldn't be posting this. I just have to get it of my chest. I shouldn't do this.

Here's the thing; I think- I'm afraid- it might seem like I don't care about your feelings, about how you are doing and what's going on in your life. But I do care about you. I care about you a lot. I want to comment nice things, tell you stuff to make you feel better but I don't know how to do that. I can't find words. 

I just don't know how to express myself. I never know how to express myself. I don't know how to express my sadness, my happiness, my anger, my fears, my pity. (I sound like a fucking sociopath wtf).

I want to know all about what is going on with you and how you feel. But I don't know how to respond to 5 chapters of your stuff out of nowhere late at night when I'm not supposed to even be on my phone anymore and without connection. Why don't you tell it to me in person? Why immediately on the internet for everyone? Why do you just fire all this stuff right at me late at night? I was so worried. Scared. I don't know. I don't understand. I don't understand why I'm writing this I'm going too far and this is not good and idk why I'm doing this and hdhdhhddhdhdhdhdhd. I sound so mean. I don't want to be mean. I feel so sorry for you. I don't want you to feel sad.

I know this is literally all my problem. I am the one who can't deal with stuff. I can't express myself. I'm just rambling on and on.

I don't want to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you. NEVER. I would never want to hurt anyone. Anyone at all. I'm worried about you now.

I don't want to post this. I don't know if I'll ever post this. Because I don't want to hurt you. I don't want anything to go wrong. Maybe I'll delete half the stuff I wrote in this. Maybe not. Idk. I'm frustrated.

The end.