Ride For Me.

Wheres the Christmas Spirit?

Vasuani POV

Christmas is only three days away. Everyones all excited but I can never shake the gut feeling I get each year,I just hated Christmas.mainly because it only reminded me of the past and the family I don't have .However I promised Cali I'd bring her shopping . I got up out of bed around 11,got in the shower did my hygiene thing once done I dragged on a pair of armani jeans, a red armani jumper with my red converses.I was now on my way out,once I stepped outside and felt that it was kinda chilli I made the fastest u-turn to get my jacket.I just put on my north face bomber jacket its the first thing I saw.Now that I was ready I left my house once again and headed over to Calis house.Once there I knocked three times so she knew it was me,while waiting there I could hear her scream and her lil feet running to the door. All I could do was chuckle,this girl loved the christmas.

She opened the door with half her hair in her face and heavily breathing. I kissed her forehead and she dragged me in. "Hey you" she said, "hey". She knows why I hate Christmas, so every year she tries her hardest to cheer me up with silly jokes and games. Don't get me wrong I appreciate it but she needs to face the fact that I will never enjoy Christmas the way I used to. She walked upstairs and came back down with her hair straightened and a completely different outfit she changed into a red outfit like me. She loves when were matching,can't lie a nigga feels it too. She was looking good though, damn. "Your looking way too nice just for the mall" I finally said. " Thankyou aha, I just wanted to make you feel better" "your presence itself makes me feel better" I said wrapping my arm around her waist. Cali's nose started going red, It made me chuckle,"why you laughing""nothing""noo tell me I wanna laugh aswell""alright miss rudolph" she rolled her eyes once she noticed I was laughing at her nose. "Roll your eyes one more time and you ain't gonna have any eyes to roll, damn" she looked up at me with the deadliest glare, as she was about to open her loud mouth , I cut her off with a kiss. She just smiled and let it go, well for now anyways.

We finally got to her car, God knows why she parked it so far from her house but we finally got in, I opened the passenger seat for her and obviously she rolled her eyes , "what did I say bout rolling your eyes Cali" "Whateva V get your ass into the passenger side cos you aint driving my baby" "I thought I was your baby though""well I guess you thought wrong then V cos this right here is my baby""ite say no more " I got up and hopped into the passengers side ,I can't wait till I get my own car,I kept telling my mum but she keeps shaking it off or ignoring me ,oh well soon ...soon.

Half way to the mall Cali finally broke the silence that lingered throughout the car "when you going to accept your fathers death?" I thought long and hard about that question but I just didn't have an answer. I looked over at Cali and simply said " I don't think I ever can".

*FLASHBACK*

It was christmas day,me daddy and mummy was all sitting around eating christmas dinner I was enjoying christmas this year because I got everything I asked for and even more.that's why I loved daddy he always spoilt me ,when I'm older I want to be just like him I thought to myself because he has all those nice cars and nice jewllery,and he always wears nice clothes.I sat there staring at him untill he felt me staring"lil man what you staring at""just you daddy I wanna be just like you" mummys face looked dissapointed once I said that, I dont know why though who wouldn't want their son to be like their dad,I tried shaking it off but I kept peeping her giving daddy the death glare daddy then said "son be yourself you don't have to be like me you can be anything you want in the world" he then got up and gave me a hug. His phone then rang,he looked at mum then said one second I gotta take this.

5 mins later he returned to the table he looked furious,he kissed mama and me and said I gotta go,mama and him then had a really big argument about him leaving us on christmas day and how he loves his job more than his family but he just said "ima come back in like 20mins what's the problem I'm pretty sure yall will still be at the table",she just gave up there was no hope nothing she said was gonna make him stay, he kissed mama once more even though she kept resisting and kissed me again before shouting "I love you guys".

Those were his last words

*END OF FLASHBACK*

She let out a sigh and let the silence break through once again. I felt guilty for the reply I gave her so I said "One year will come where I will not blame Christmas and the streets for the death of my father and when that day comes I know you'll be right by my side ,like you always have been". I saw a huge grin form on her face and she intertwined her fingers with mines. I really and truly loved this girl.

We pulled up to the mall hand in hand, I knew this was going to be a long ass day.

Tamika POV

Vasuani's been out with Jade more often, I guess they've made it official, took them long enough. She's the only girl I ever want my son to be with all them other girls are just hoes ,Jade and Vasuani bring the best out in each other and I can see that when he's with her he's truly happy.

Lately I've been in and out of scans and doctors appointments. I haven't even had the chance to tell Vasuani yet as I don't want him to worry however I get my results tomorrow.

I would hate to tell Vasuani during this time of the year because he's always soo down and in his thoughts because of his father Carter's death, and the thought of him losing his only parent left might just be enough to push Vasuani over the edge. So I've just been waiting for the results and praying for the sake of Vasuani that I'm fine.