My journal

Sorry

Sorry to the ones who care
For be there to see me go thought a tough time dealing with a small part of depression that I couldn't fight for

Burying my feeling away from a situation that happen a few year ago
That kept me so distinct from everyone else

I felt bad that i could be there for them when they  where there for me
But it was to hard to even explain to other

Because every time I tried to talk about it seem to alway  bring memories that I didn't want to come to mine

I could've of said something about it but never could

Because I was scared of what other would thing and what he would of done and how he would just find a away out of it like he always dose

But this time he got punish for it but it still hurts to see that he still got away even if I tried my best to stay way I can still see his face

And I know he still out there but I can't forgive someone who I thought was my friend but end up getting use for something I didn't want to happen

But it still happen scared  the living hell out of me

It may have not got that far but still was wrong to even do to some one like me who is to kind and nice to everyone she cares for

But all the memories I have still bring that terrible feeling up
Knowing that I can't trust anyone much  no more
but a few people who I can

So I take every step slow hoping I can reach myself agin to be there for them who care for me
So I say  I'm sorry for not being there but I'm gonna try