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I was out back talking to Fezco and Suki when Jules arrived.
"This shit ain't good for you," Suki mumbles to Rue as she rolls her blunt.
Rue lets out a laugh, "Whatchu mean? Weed is good for everybody."
Suki rolls her eyes, "You know what the fuck I mean, Rue." "You need to chill out, it's not like you don't be doin' it too."
"I don't, Rue," Suki hands her best friend the joint. "I fucking stopped the week after you overdosed. I haven't touched anything other than weed in two fucking months! And as much as I hate myself, there's no way in hell I'd let anybody go through what your family and I went through!" Suki almost yells at Rue, looking at her best friend, not noticing Fez was standing right behind her.
"You what?" Suki hears Fez's voice and as soon as she heard it she knew she was fucked, "Ima deal with you later," He points at Suki before turning to the slumped girl next to her. "The fuck, Rue," Fez sits down next to Rue.
"What? What, what, what, what, what.."
"C'mon now, bruh, you owe me $120 bucks."
"My bad, man, I forgot," Rue chuckles and hands Fez the joint.
"Shit, you know I ain't trippin," He takes a hit. "Well, to be honest witchu, yo whole drug shit got me feelin' kinda uneasy."
"C'mon, don't go soft on me, Fez," Rue says with a drugged out smile.
"Nah, I'm not, it's just that I like you..and I missed you bruh. That shit at the beginning of the summer had me scared as fuck."
"Yeah, you and everybody else."
"I'm serious, Rue. I-I seen a lot of people die, none like you and I don't know what kind of fucked up shit you got goin' inside your head and I don't know how to help, but I can tell you one thing, this drug shit is not the answer."
At that moment, Suki assumed that Fezco liked me and now she really wasn't gonna say shit because if there was a possibility of me and Fez gettin' together, she wasn't gonna ruin that. Suki was a good friend like that, even if she didn't know I didn't like dick. And if I was a little more high and a bit of a bitch, I would've outed Suki to Fezco right then because he was giving me so much shit and he wasn't saying anything to her. But then again, Suki hadn't been doing drugs like me anymore and to my knowledge, Fezco didn't know jack shit about Suki.
"Nah, I remember when I was 11 years old. It was couple months after my dad got diagnosed and we got the results back from the prognosis and it was really good. It was like 80/20 and we decided to celebrate so we ordered a whole bunch of chinese food. I remember that night I was laying between my parents in bed and uh..all of sudden I couldn't breathe. It was like there was no more air left in the world...and I was gasping and I was panicking and they called the ambulance and they thought it was an allergic reaction or some shit. And then when I got to the hospital, they gave me liquid valium. Yeah..to calm me down and when it hit me I thought, 'This is it..this is the feeling I have been searching for my entire life for as long as I could remember' because suddenly, the world went quiet and I felt safe in my own head. Two years later he was gone. Panic attacks stayed and I found a way to live, so...will it eventually kill me? Maybe? Fuck, maybe not, I dunno.." The three teengers stay silent after Rue's revelation. Suki just wanted to crawl into a hole, Rue wanted to be happy, and Fezco didn't realize the severity of the situation. Rue turns to the boy, "Still gon' be my dealer, Fez?"
