return. // bws

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I parked Niall's car in front of his flat, and i walked a few blocks back to the hotel, a drive from Birmingham to Doncaster is an hour so simplified two hours. I was exhausted, i jumped on te sofa and my eyes were heavy.

I can't stop crying, my chest was painful, and my arms were weak, it's been three days since i last felt the wind hugging me in this place, i was all alone now.

They all went to Manila without me. They don't think i care about them anymore, they don't think i still love them for who they are.

"Oh and by the way, Connor, your favorite pizza topping was pepperoni." I said into the air. Remembering, what happened a few nights before.

I kept crying, i buried my face on my pillow, i haven't eaten for days, and i haven't showered for weeks. I haven't got enough sleep since the last time they left me alone.

Nightmares were overtaking me and i had nothing else to do but to suffer, it's the consequences of my actions and i have to face it, i was dumb enough to get myself in this situation but im not smart enough to get myself out of this.

i sighed and i stood up, i walked up in my room and opened the computer, and i have done what i have to do.

......

"Bradley!" Ross calls out, as i closed my locker. "Hey man, you okay?" Ross asks, i nod. "Not much, but i am." i faked a smile. Ross grabbed my arm, "i know what you've been going through these past few days, but trust me. Everything will be okay." Ross smiles

I just nodded and faked another smile. Ross was a very cheerful person, he's the great hero of the gang, honestly.

"want me to bring you to the mall tonight, the whole gang's going to the bar." Ross frowns. "Yeah sure, maybe that'll cheer me up." I reply. Ross nods, "aight, see you later." Ross waved goodbye.

I walked towards my next class.

......

"Brad! need a ride home?" Anne asks, i shook my head, "me and Ross will be going to the mall." i answer. "Come with us to the bar. It'll be fun." Anne smiles

I shook my head, "go ahead and get drunk, your boyfriend has some other things in mins." i reply, Anne frowns, "i guess i'll be going with you in the mall." she scoffs.

"You don't have to." I stated. She shook her head, "i'll be coming with you even if you like it or not." She retorted.

"Bradley!" i heard Jesy call, i faced her, "are you still going to sing in our Charity Concert next month?" she asks, "i don't think so.." I muttered, "please try your best to make it! We need you guys." Jesy pleaded. "Don't worry, i'll find a way." i faked a smile.

Jesy nods and waved goodbye and walked away. "Ready to go?" Ross asks, i nodded, we both got in Anne's car and we drove to the mall.