The Writer And His Beast(Boy*Boy)

chapter 4

Well, after that delighting dinner, we all went to our rooms to pack. I just couldn't believe that all this was happening. How am I supposed to cope in a completely new environment. Am used to home, everything about me revolves around home.

How will I be able to sleep without seeing my parents?

All this is just too much to bare. I love my parents so much and since childhood I've never been separated from them for more than a few hours otherwise my papa will not stop unravelling every stone looking for my ass.
So now how am I supposed to sleep without Mama's kisses, every night mama kisses our fore heads before we sleep, now how do we cope without her. Worst thing of all is....

I can't carry my whole closet with me.

Apparently I'll have to start a new once I get to the rulers castle. God I have never been there before. I've never even dreamt of going there. I always knew that sooner or later I'll have to see him but I didn't anticipate it'll be this soon

I sighed taking a seat on one of the couches on the right side of the room near the window looking at my kingdom for the last time.... lost in thought......

"Did you finish packing?" Jules asked startling me I almost fell out the fucking window.

"Dude, you don't do that, like never!" I snapped moving over to him shaking my head side to side as a no do thing.

" Sorry..." He said taking a sit on the lower side of the bed. "I just finished packing, hey...did you know aunt decided that there's no bringing our whole closets with us?" He asked looking very dissapointed at my mother's command.

You see Jules is like me, he's got a walk in closet but not as big as mine, he likes different brands of clothes, he still wears the Balenciaga and all but still maintains his stylishness. Most of his stuff are mainly pink and purple....

He's so gay.

He's the kind that wears ripped jeans and crop tops and leather loafers. The boy's admirable and very cute. Sometimes I envy how openly gay he is. He's so comfortable and satisfied with his sexuality, as for me...

Well, am not homophobic and neither are my parents. I am gay and am not ashamed of it. I just don't know how people will react to that and it frightens me.

The need to be accepted is very highly concentrated in me.. I love being safe and wanted it's a need I mine. I don't like negativity around me, I just like positive vibes around me, I love being happy and surounded by love and peace. So the thought of people looking at me in a different way or have homophobes bully me I just stick to my lane and play cool.

It's not that I can't fight for myself, I definitely can but I just avoid fights and arguments. This is one of the reasons why I don't like moving from my kingdom coz I never know how people from the rest of the kingdoms think of a gay royal and next heir. So am really not looking forward to this visit to the ruler's kingdom.

As I reached Jules,
I leaned on him and lay my head on his left shoulder

"Yeah I know, she gave the oder that we only carry what will sustain us for a week at least to adjust to the enviroment then after were there we can have as many clothes and shoes as we want ." I scorned closing my eyes and thinking of the current events.

"It's gonna be ok, we'll be fine." Jules encouraged as he played with my locks.

"Hey jules,.." I said as I now lay my head on his lap looking directly at him..." Do you think they'll accept us? Does the ruler even entertain same sex relationships?" I asked him softly.