Safarnama

"Tomorrow's list for propagation is out ," someone shouted .
It was 12:01 am I put my hammer down took out my phone turn on the data and new what's app messages flashed up . I open up tech fest x group and new list was up I went through Searching for my name .  Junaid - Disha : Gec , godhra .
And reading this my heart beat went up I looked up at sky and was like why God just why ? It was the  only thing I feared and yes it came up before the fest end . Suddenly a cold breeze blow giving a solid chill and at same time turning on flashback mode in my mind . It was start of January and we all were up at university in preparation for tech fest till late night by the time it was habitual for all of us to stay up there , working ,cracking jokes , mid night tea break and many other "boys fun " . As per rules girls have to leave the campus by 10:30 at most so by late time only guys survive there !
I kept my phone back  in my pocket and stood up  had sip of water to gather some courage and calm myself down . I started climbing up the stairs , each step felt like carrying over a 100 kg weight over you , I don't know why it was , was I so much tired ? Nah I can go further beyond than this without rest . It was something inner that weighs so much .
Anyhow I managed to climb , I went directly to Mayur and gathering all courage I told " Mayur I need substitution for tomorrow ." He looked up to me with uneasiness and it was expected .
Mayur was one of the co -ordinator and perhaps one of the most sensible person I know in tech fest , he was bit short heighten with unusual spikes hair and little bit facial hair which perfectly suits over his sharp cut face with a body of 55 kg !  " Junaid I have already excluded you many time from propagation on your request but it's peak time of event and you are asking again to do ." His face fell while saying this .
" No , no you are misleading it I just want a change I'm willing to go , send me with any a to z except Disha , I would go ." I responded him  and by the time it seems that I have annoyed him and have to explain it before it becomes worst . " We both aren't comfortable with each other , please understand ." I added up in requesting manner .
"Breakup ?" He added . " Nothing , just we both aren't comfortable with each other ." I said as I didn't wanted to reveal anything personal ." Well in this case being in same team  you need to learn to co - ordinate with each other , keeping your personal problems aside you have to go with her no matter what goes and make sure you bring good entries and even try to solve your dispute by tomorrow ." By saying this he turned things from bad to worst . "Already tried but didn't worked " I murmured and left .
I don't know why God have to give me such a tough choices to make in her case , firstly it was hard to forget her , when I finally did what was the need for him to bring her in same university okay that can be co incidence but what was the need for bringing her in same fest and now this God I seriously hate you for this !
I went back to my work and started hammering the plates more harder that harder that twice the nail passed out totally from plates and I realized that when my partner shook me and told to do it easily after completing that work .
I took out my phone and search for train timings and got one at 6 a.m , then I searched up for one number in my what's app whom I have  never ever texted or  nor willing to do !
"I tried to get change but Mayur didn't agreed , you give a chance if it works or if don't there's a train 6 a.m be there at station by 5:30 ." I wrote that but find it hard to press the send button , after a minute I finally did and within few seconds the message was delivered  and a minute later the ticks turned blue and Disha typing showed up ...

Okay ! Was her response . After approximately 20 Minutes another message came up "I would be up at main platform by 5:30 .. "  and I was like yeah ! Let's do this . I wasn't sure what actually I wanted  that time was I happy ? Was I afraid to face her again? Was I upset with situation ? Was I searching for another chance ? I don't know what exactly I wanted to be honest , my mood was changing faster  than a girl on periods !
After an hour or so we were granted to leave for home , though my body reached home my soul was already at railway station , thinking of all possibilities . I Tried to sleep a bit but wasn't able I was trying to prepare all sentences to speak in front of her in hypothetical situations ! No matter how much you try act like "GENTLE MEN " you always end up saying something stupid in front of them and make fool of yourself . I always hold a good record in doing so !
The clock strike 4:30 and I went to take shower and by the time my sweet mom prepared breakfast for me even after insisting not to do , well who can stop an Indian mom specially in terms of food ! I put on tech fest tees which was perhaps mandatory as for your branding and kinda showing up your identity before asked with my multi pockets pants which I always prefer in traveling and being cold outside I put on my sweatshirt on .
I reached the station by 5:20 and straightforward went to take tickets and inquiry about train arrival . By the time i finished taking up tickets there was call from her . " Where are you ? " She asked  " I just took the tickets I'm coming back at entrance . " I responded . " Okay , I'm standing at extreme left corner . " Saying this she disconnected  the call .
" You are 8 minutes late , learn to be on time . " I said her in taunting manner . " Did I missed the train ? No na to bas I doesn't matter . " She always had witty replies to my tantrum since beginning . " The train is arriving at platform 4 let's go there . " I said and she nodded in response . She looks almost the same from the time we separated . Just the thing I feel was she had grown lean a bit that maybe because of that added extra inches  ,well now she has pretty good height . Her face still has that charmingly out look , with her small eyes always glittering up with frequent flapping  . Her nose still held at same spot with its peak perfectly blunt in circular curve above which there still a spot of her nose piercing. Which she had few years back and later on took it off cause i didn't liked . She was wearing those small earrings tops which she had years before  , her lips too seems same from which I got my first kiss ,  for a moment I felt that I had travelled back in time and was looking her at for the first time . The only major difference I noticed was her hair,  usually her hair was neatly platted everytime but they were open today , which forced me an extra to stare her again and again , oh lord she got evil  plans today !
We walked down to platform by the time I had finished examining her . We sat on same bench but one on extreme left and other on right and both plugged up their headphones and ignored each other , but the question was did we really ? Nope I don't think so we both kept on giving a glance over each other turn by turn. Yeah you see we are pretty good at ignoring each other !
By the time we ended looking at each other , the train arrived we both stood up and went in , the train seems to be packed as usual , I found some place over the upper berth I climbed up firstly and than as a "gentleman" I lent  her my hand to climb up . " I can do it by self ." She responded arrogantly . " " Well good for you " I responded finding myself stupid doing so . " Stop acting stupid , just stop ."  An instinct inside me  spoke   She sat next to me I felt it awkward sitting next to her ,  my view would be restricted as I won't turn my face towards her .
I stood up and went on ther berth  which was exactly in front of the previous one and now we were sitting  exactly face to face with a plenty of gap in between . I took off my shoes and extended my legs toward her berth and kept it just next to hers she did the same as if some competition is going on . Well I tried to ignore it though I didn't it was absolutely normal to sit like this I never took a note of it who's legs are next to mine but in this case I have become an observer . I again started playing up my playlist so did she .
She kept on moving on her legs  to and fro maybe like the beats of her song played which hit me twice or thrice , actually only once ! But who cares I just needed a reason . I texted her up " keep.your legs aside , you have hit me thrice with it and can't you wear fresh socks it smells stink ". " I'm wearing fresh socks maybe you yourself would be smelling stink " . She responded and laughed looking at me . Why just why !  it is so every time my own card turns against me . " Oh really ! " I texted her and took out a deodorant from my bag and sprayed it over her socks . " I can fix my own problems , don't need your help ." I texted her back  with an attitude smile on face . " Whatever who cares . " She responded and turned her face on other side .
I tried to take a nap over , you learn plenty of time management things when you work for some event , how to take naps though keeping yourself awaken was my favourite one ! Well those are different things I felt a sleep and woke up after maybe 30-35 minutes and she found her sleeping at initial I found her cute aa my total focus was over her but as I rolled her eyes towards her right , I found an old man sitting next to her and Disha was lying her head over that old man's shoulder . I laughed so hard because I couldn't make out whether that old guy was helpless or was enjoying it   the old man was almost in his early seventies and almost with no teeth and seems like all his mass has gone and only left with his skeleton with a monkey cap over his head . I took out my phone and took a snap of that scenario . I wasn't able to control my laugher and people around me must have assumed me mad .
I send her that photo with the caption " you both look so adorable , truly made for each other . " And as her phone vibrated she woke up to check it and found her lying on an old man's shoulders the look she gave to that old man was so disgusting, that he felt so scared and moved as far as he could . I was still laughing hard   She looked at me and then checked her phone  " Disgusting , can't you just wake me off . He was so yuck " she texted . " Lol , how can I you both looked so much in love . " I replied  still trying to control my laugher  " Ughh , I hate you sooo muuuch!! " she responded with a bit  of anger and again that  heart robe moment was witness after those all years .
By the time we were just few minutes away from our station , I asked her to climb down and so did I we stood nearby the exit door so that we can easily get down . As the train was moving with it speed and the door was open so does her hair was . We both were standing as expected facing towards each other leaving a gap for someone to pass  . As the wind blew her front flick was getting down again and again and she use to put it back behind her ear . " Please stop ." I said . " what ? " She questioned . " Putting back your hair back again and again it's pretty distracting , I'm trying to search something " I replied with a smile . " Well who cares ! " She responded with a blush over her face she knew I didn't wanted her either to stop doing so .
We both get down on station and I was searching for the route ahead , Google map approximately 2  km from the current location . " So how would you like to go ?  should I call a chopper or a Bentley or a Harley Davidson would work ? " I asked her . " Shut up and just say how far it is ? " She responded . " A km or so . " I responded . " Than let's better walk ." She added . " Well I won't mind but lately don't blame me for it I gave you plenty options . " I told her . Ignoring my shitty words she started walking off . It was another skill we learned from fest that how to save a penny every possible time you can . And well who won't like to walk up in that beautiful winter morning .