Utterly lonesome (Death the Kid x Crona)

Chapter 11

A/N: Thank you all for reading my story this far. I hope you all enjoy the last two chapters. As sad as I am to see this story come to an end, I am excited to start on new things, too. And yes, I did say that there were only two more chapters, This one and the next one should be the finale. I can't express how much I love you all and how happy I am to have provided a story that so many of you enjoy. But this is Farewell and you can carry on with the rest of the story.

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How long has it been? Too long. Crona sat in a chair in the hospital room Kid was staying in on the other side of the room, too scared to sit next to him. Crona didn't deserve to sit next to him. Kid's been unconscious for so long. The doctors said he will be alright but what was scaring Crona the most was what would happen when he woke up. Would Kid reject Crona again? But what about Kid's sacrifice? It could have been his last.

Does that mean he still loves me? Crona thought. Or was it just because he is a good person?

"Excuse me, Don't you have your own family to go home to?" A nurse asked peaking her head in the door. She had golden blonde locks of hair and big blue eyes. Crona's head shook sadly. The nurse went over to Kid's broken leg and arm, making sure they were supported well. She checked various things and then was gone.

Everyone who had visited him was now gone. Crona might have been too, being afraid of when Kid woke up, but there was no where to go and some feeling in Crona's chest made it hard to even leave the room. The feeling grew stronger, slowly and painfully making it's way into Crona's throat the more time there was to sit and think. Warm tears fell down Crona's cheeks, turning into a weep.

It's all my fault... The thought came as a dagger, bringing more tears and making the cry not as soft. It's all my fault! It's all my fault! It's all my fault! "I don't deserve you!" Crona shouted in a shaky voice. "I shouldn't be here! You shouldn't have to deal with me!" Crona quickly started to lose it. "I should be far away from here!" Then getting up, looking at the floor Crona calms down a little. "Don't worry, I'll leave. You'll never have to see me again." Foot after foot, Crona started to leave.

"Then what's the point of me saving you," A weak voice said.

"Kid?" Crona whispered, not turning around.

"Get over here," A slight, weak chuckle was heard. Walking over, Crona tried not to make eye contact with Kid but failed to do so, now standing at his bedside. "Your ridiculous, you know that?" He chuckled again without much strength. Crona blushed. There was a silence that they didn't make eye contact during. Kid, looking away, started to speak. "I think I wanted you to find me."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean..." He slowly caught his breath, his voice barely keeping up to him. "I could have gone anywhere on Beelzebub and not have had to be here any longer... But I chose to take the bus... I chose to leave a note... I don't think that I ever stopped loving you," He finished as he sat up as much as he could, looking like he was in severe pain, and wiped Crona's left over tears away. He groaned slightly as he layed himself back down. Crona stepped back, head down.

"But don't you see..." Kid looked up and raised an eyebrow. "I don't deserve it... None of it... So, I don't understand why you still treat me like how you do..."

Kid reached out his shaking hand and grabbed Crona's. He tugged slightly. "Crona, look at me," Crona looked up. He caught his breath again. "Don't you see that you're important to me?"

"But why?" Begged Crona.

"How many times do I have to tell you?" Kid seemed a little annoyed. He still spoke weakly. every sentence fading away before he pasued to take another breath. "It's because I'm in love with you. ...I know that no one has ever loved you like this.. before... but you need to know that it's a real un-breaking feeling," He tugged over Crona's arm, placing it on the center of his chest. "In here!" He started, trying to be louder but only half successful. "In here, there is this feeling that eats at me when your not around. It... makes my heart beat faster when you are here. It kills me when I make you hurt. It makes me... want only your happiness," He released Crona's hand. "That is how it feels... You need to understand that."

Crona immediately bent over and grabbed Kid's hand, putting it in the middle Crona's chest. "In here!" Crona started. "In here, there is this feeling... It makes me feel more complete. It takes away that lonely feeling eating me away when ever I am around you," Crona started to cry again. "It gives me this pain from not knowing if you will be with me tomorrow or not... And... "Crona spoke between sobs now. "I-i don't know if.. I sh-should run and hide o-or stay. It's just all so confusing!"

Kid pulled Crona in, with his unbroken arm, so Crona could cry into his chest. Crona's arms carefully wrapped around Kid, being aware that he was still badly hurt and continued to cry.

Suddenly the nurse came in and Crona pulled away, looking over. It was the same nurse from earlier she peeked over to the bed. "I see someone is awake," She turned around. "I will be back." A few moments passed by and the tears dried up and Kid groaned softly, leaning his head back. Crona looked down because of it, feeling guilty.

The nurse came back in and walked over to the bed. "So, how are you feeling? Everything doing alright?" Kid nodded.

"It just hurts," He said.

"You're lucky to be alive. Not many people survive from that kind of thing," She said pulling a small light out and putting it in front of Kid's eyes. She mumbled slightly as she waved her finger in front of his face. "...And... You're good! Everything seems to be in order." She popped back up and wrote stuff onto a paper on her clipboard. Then she was gone.

Crona was feeling more and more vulnerable, not believing what Crona had actually told Kid just moments ago. Starting to back out, Crona spoke. "Well, I-i think I will be going now. Everything seems fine here..."

"Crona...? Crona!" Kid shouted, trying to be loud, as Crona ran out of the room.

What am I doing? Crona thought as another tear fell down. Your so stupid! In the middle of the hallway, stumbling backwards, Crona fell back against the wall and slid down it. It seemed so silly to be so afraid of just letting go around Kid. To just let him now how you feel. Yet, It seemed so much easier to not let everything out. All of those feelings. But that is kind of what got them there in the first place. Never truly confessing love for Kid... Wanting to keep their relationship a secret... Another tear fell down. Kid was right, Crona had never been loved like this before. Crona didn't know how to deal with it. But one thing was for sure, No more hiding! No more hiding anything!

Standing up, Crona wiped the tears away with one hand started walking, gaining speed as Kid's room got closer, again. Before going into the room, Crona took a deep breath then went in, not looking up at Kid's face.

"Crona?" Kid said warmly.

Crona gasped and fell from weak knees, being nearly in front of the bed. "I'm sorry..." Crona said weakly. "I don't deserve you... But I can't get over the fact that I am... I'm in love with you!" Crona confessed. Crona's hands now over heart. "You were that way to get a rid of the loneliness in my heart... You gave me everything and I..." Crona started crying. "d-don't k-know h-h-how to ever, ever repay you! All I know is that I want to give you my all. I-i just want to stay by your side forever..." Crona's hands quickly went over Crona's face, muffling the words. "And that is how I feel!"

Kid just layed in shock, not having ever expected that to come out of Crona's mouth and actually say it. He had no words. He couldn't even make it better with a hug or something because his body was too frail at the time. He bit his lip, suddenly feeling guilt. "I'm sorry, Crona." He started. He still got his breath in. "I should have never went off... on you. We should be at home, enjoying... our day."

"No, no!" Crona said in slight panic. "If you hadn't, we would have other problems and probably would have broken up anyway," Then Crona looked down in sadness, remembering that they were technically still broken up. Should it be brought up? "Hey, Kid? I'm kind of tired."

He took a deep breath. "Go home," His voice was starting to get shaky. "Get some rest. I will be here when you get back."

Crona's mouth opened to object but decided against it. Going over to the door, Kid said from behind: "Do you think..." His voice was still a little shaky, but at least it wasn't progressing that way. "That we could go back to how we were... happy and together?"

Crona nodded. "But different. I will change. For the best," They both smiled at each other and Crona left. As soon as the door was closed, Crona grinned widely and unbreakingly. They could now finally go back to how things were and be together.