Take A Chance

Chapter 1

Warning this is a sad scene so I advise a sad song playlist, it would really build the moment.
Here are a few songs I listened to while writing this:
Without me by halsey
Only want you by Rita Ora ft 6lack
Out of love by Alessia Cara

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We have been sitting here for over an hour, fighting. And I don't think I have it in me to continue, and I don't think he does either.

"Guess this is goodbye"he said, meeting my eyes for the first time in twenty minutes. "No,no, it's not. We can still make this work"I said tears glistering at my eyes.

"How?. You want to be in California"he said, I could see the pain in his eyes.

"I haven't even decided yet, she just asked me...". "But you obviously want to go! I can't do long distance Kira" he said looking away. It's like the site of me burns he's eyes.

"Why are you doing this. You know this could be the start of something big for me,for us Mason" I said in a low voice, hoarse from yelling."No Kira, it's just you. I'm sorry but we have to end this"he said looking into the sunset.

It's  golden rays making his eyes lighter, like fire. I loved the fire but I hated why it was there,I love the sunset but hated the moment that came with it. I wanted the beauty but couldn't handle the pain .

"What"I couldn't have heard him right, he couldn't possibly be breaking up with me. "I'm breaking up with you Kira"his eyes seem so distant.

"No, no, no...don't say that" I said in between sobs. "You can't just do that. No!. We've been together for way too long to end this now. Over something we can work through. You can move with me Mason" I cried.

"I...I know we can do this, please don't end us"I said in a low voice, tears staining my cheeks with every second that passed by. Why can't he just be there for me?. Why does he feel we have to end?. Why can't we make this work?.

He tears his eyes away from mine again, running his hands back and forth on his legs then he pauses. "I can go with you Kira,there's nothing for me there"he says staring deep at the floor. I reach for his hand.

"What about me?" The tears have stopped. "You're not enough" he lets go of me and walks away, leaving my heart in it's shattered pieces. I can't seem to process the words that came out of his mouth.

" Mason" I say hoping that he'd turn around and tell me it was all a joke. That maybe he'd turn around and hug me and kiss me and tell me that I'm enough. But he just kept walking and my heart kept on breaking.

The sun is completely down now. I just sit there, buried in thoughts, my shirt soaked with tears.

My phone rings  in my pocket but I ignore it. It rings again and I finally dig it out of my pocket but it's already gone to voicemail. I check to see it was my mum.She's probably wondering where I am. I also have a couple of texts from Emm.

I stagger up,my legs shaky from the lack of blood flow. With slow steps it gets sturdier.

The night is quiet. Too quiet. That's the last thing I need right now. I put on my pods and press play on my playlist. Walking home with sad songs blaring through my pods.

I jiggle my keys thought the lock and push it open. Shutting it behind me. I'm half relieved to see that my mum wasn't waiting up for me.

With heavy steps and blurry eyes I make my way up to my room.

It's three a.m. and I still can't seem to fall asleep. I just lay there on my bed,staring at my phone, hoping he'd send me a good night text with a heart emoji like he does every night.

After tossing and turning I make my way to my closet and pull out a box containing my diaries,old and current. My eye catches something. March sixteen. The day I first met Mason. And I start to read the words of young me. Falling in love with the boy who just break my heart.

I wake up to a banging on my door. "Kira! I know you're there. Get up and explain yourself young lady!.

Ugh my head. My eyes barely open,I stumble to my door. "Kira if you don't..." My mum pauses mid sentence the minute I open the door. "What happened baby?" She says worry written all over her features.

"Nothing mum I'm fine" I try to say but my voice is so raspy and barely audible. My throat feels so dry. "You're obviously not fine. What happened last night? Was it..." A knock at the door cuts her off and I'm thankful. My mum won't stop until she gets me to talk and I really don't want to talk about it, at least not with her.

"By the look on your face I'm guessing the talk with Mason didn't go so well" my best friend says and in an instant tears start to burn at my eyes once more. "Oh honey" she hugs me. "I'll give the both of you privacy. Please  find out why she's so upset" my mum says and Emm nods against my shoulder.

I tell Emm what happened, struggling with sobs. My best tries to console me.  "He just broke up with me Emm"I cry on my best friend's shoulder. "Then he's not worth it. Please stop crying you're going to get sick" she say pulling away. I make my way to the mirror on the door of my closet. My face is red,eyes bloodshot and puffy. I look so...broken.

"Come on, let's get you cleaned up" she says leading me to the bathroom.

One shower later, I'm sitting at my dresser in sweat pants and Mason's old band t-shirt while Emm finds me something to eat after me trying to protest. Tho my voice was barely audible.

"Okay so I made ginger tea for your throat and... What the heck are you wearing. Please don't tell me that's Mason's" she says placing down the tray. I just shrug and reach for the tea. She just sighs in defeat and flops on my bean bag and stares up at the ceiling

The tea helps my throat hurt less. "I bumped into your mum downstairs, she seemed so worried and was bombarding me with questions and i just told her the basics and that told her you'd talk to her" she turns to look at me waiting for a response.

"Okay"I say,my voice still rough but more audible.

After a while my best friend asks "So what now" I stare at my hands realizing that there's only one option left "I'm moving to California"