𝘉𝘖𝘙𝘌𝘋 ; jikook / chaelisa

XXIX

JUNGKOOK

It was such a pretty day. The sun was out, brightly lighting up everything I stared at. The blue sky complimented the brightness and the way the breeze was pushing its way inside by that little space between the wall and the window made the curtains of our house slowly dance to its strength. It was silent. There were six pair of eyes that were avoiding each other as we sat on the sofas of the usually very comfortable living room. I was fighting the urge to cry and my two eyes weren't included in the six other pairs. I was looking down at my trembling fingers.

As I sat there, my mind was going through everything possible. Especially how this morning resulted to this afternoon. After yesterday's crying and just trying to comprehend what had been going on, I was really exhausted and fell asleep for a good time. I woke up around ten today. And he was there. His beautiful but tired eyes lightened up when they met mine. I noticed the way his eyes had lost their brightness and the way those sparkly tears kept rolling down his red wet cheeks. He was biting his lip and the way his shoulder were slumped up in fear made me want to cry. I had wanted to speak up, apologize, ask him why he never told me anything.

But it was silent. I ate breakfast in silence. He was sitting on the sofa, besides Yoongi as Hoseok and Taehyung were with me, making sure that I ate.
I remember how confused I felt. I felt guilty for not comforting him, but I also felt like he deserved it. And I surely knew why I felt like that. But I tried to shrug it off as confusion. So the silent day continued on that's where we were right now. It was afternoon.
We were all sitting in the living room of mine and Lisa. She looked truly regretful. But I couldn't erase the way her fingers intertwined with that other girl.
The one Hoseok said was Chaeyoung. Yoongi's sister. The girl Taehyung had asked about a few days ago. The girl that my girl cheated on me with.

As mentioned, it was so silent. Yoongi was still hugging Jimin, but I saw on his face that he was uncomfortable. I sensed it as soon as he had caught us red handed. That boy didn't see jimin as his bestfriend. He saw him as something more. It was pretty hysterical. How we all sat here. All effected by this. I now knew why Lisa hated my touch. It wasn't me. It was her. I knew now why I couldn't hold  myself when it was about Jimin. Because I had feelings for him. Hella big ones. Yoongi had got his heart broken. And both his sister and bestfriend got involved in something that he hated with passion.
Taehyung and Hoseok were here too. And they were affected too. They're bestfriend had gone in the same path as themselves once had. With none other than Hoseok's ex's bestfriend.

And my girl-Lisa, has gotten together with the ex's sister. It was... hysterical. The way both me and Lisa turned out to not be straight. The way we both looked at each other with guilt in our eyes but our hearts looking at another one. The way she stood up and I did too and the way we walked towards each other, our movements causing lots of noise in the silence and suddenly everyone's attention was on us. But we had our attention on each other for one last time. I looked her in the eyes as her hands find their way to my back. My hands grabbed her waist and we stood like that, inches away. I smiled at her and she gave me an identical one back.

"I'm so sorry, Lalisa."

"I'm so sorry, Jungkook"

I felt the tears rolling as I let it all out.
She pulled me into a hug and soon her sobs joined mine. I had my eyes closed as I apologized multiple times. It was crazy how the girl I once used to love oh so dearly was going to not be mine any longer. And it was insane that it all ended like this. You really can't predict your future.

"I'm so thankful for everything.
For you being my first.
For you being my girl.
I never intended to hurt you!
I'm so sor-"

"I'm more sorry.
For not telling you sooner.
For  making you feel unloved.
For making you feel
like you were at fault.
I'm-m"

Our cries were getting louder as we couldn't get enough of apologizing. This was going to take some time healing. But for the moment. I had forgiven her. I felt like she had done the same with me. And we were thankful that we were both in this.

"I'm glad you found out
that you're not straight.."

"I'll have to say the same"

She replied with a chuckle before the sobs continued. I was thankful. That she was so understanding. If I would hear about two people in love cheating on each other could forgive each other in just one day, I would probably laugh and call it a joke. But here I was, in that exact situation, and this was the realest it could get. I had cheated on my girlfriend with a boy I seemed to love now. While she had been with a girl. I opened my eyes and glance over at Jimin, who's red eyes were staring right back. My lips turned a little up and I smiled. He stopped crying, as he continued to stare. I saw a small curve on his lips and my heart jumped.

jimin...

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