This is What Dreams are Made of

Secret Admirer?

"Sooo..." Ellie suggested, looking at me as if I have something. I gulped and gave her my best pretend 'dumbfounded' look.

"Soo.. What?" I shrugged and looked at myself in the mirror, taking off my makeup for the day.

"How was the kiss idiot?!" She squealed quietly and my face broke out into a big smile unconsciously.

I blushed and looked down, "I- it was amazing.." I started, "...He was so demanding but gentle at the same time.. This might've been the push we needed Elle"

Ellie smiled as she typed away on her phone-probably updating the girls.

That kiss was something... It was everything I dreamed of.. I hope this means that he was lying when he said that whole situation a few weeks ago was 'a spur in the moment thing'

As Ellie talked, I continued to take off my makeup and change into a sweats and an oversized shirt. I hummed along to my Latin playlist as I threw my hair up into a bun.

"Give me the deets about the kiss Ren!" She begged and I giggled.

"I don't kiss and tell" I slyly said, wiggling my eyebrows and she burst out laughing, rolling onto thr floor.

I wonder how Aiden felt about the kiss....

"Knock, knock.." Speak of the devil.  I could feel my face heating up as I see that he's shirtless. I take note that Ky helped him fix his eye and nose.

"...hey" I said quite breathily trying to hide my smile by looking at anywhere besides him. There was silence in the room for about a minute- awkward silence- may I add. 

"Well I um.. I'm just gonna go.." Ellie stammered, gathering her stuff and dashing out of the room to escape the awkwardness.

"Soo, what's up?" I say bubbly, smiling at him. I finally looked up at him and I realize he's not smiling, or looking particularly in fact. Something is telling me that nothing good is gonna come from this talk. 

He then proceeds to sit on my bed and I look at him from the mirror on my vanity. My hands shake as I continue taking off my makeup and do my nightly skin care routine. 

"Soo.. about the kiss..." He says, scratching the back of his neck. I look at him to determine the reaction that I give him. I can't have him thinking he 'broke my heart' or whatever. I keep a poker face and nod silently asking him where he was going with this.

"It was good." He made eye contact with me, "...Really good" He bit his lip and looked down.

"I'm sensing a 'but' coming after that sentence" 

"I- well..." I raise my eyebrow.

"So your a sociopath that jerks people around and doesn't care about people's feelings?" I say, before he can even get another word out. 

He was speechless. So was I. I was supposed to play as if I don't care. But I can't... Because I know Aiden.. Well dream Aiden and I know he's not that kind of person and I know for a fact that kiss meant something between us.

"No! It's just that I don't think-"

I scoff, "I already know what your going to say, 'I just don't think I'm ready for a relationship right now.' Newsflash Aiden. I can sense the unsaid 'at least not with you' in that sentence. And who said anything about a relationship? We just kissed- well made out but whatever! The point is that you were leading me on this whole time weren't you?" I lash out getting up and getting all close and person with him and his eyes widen like saucers.

His face turns into a poker face but I can see a hundred emotions behind his brown orbs. Emotions that I don't even know if he knows what they are. I'm not going to wait around until he figures it out. It's either you want someone or you don't. There's no in between.