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III

I am going crazy.

I cannot take this anymore. Having everything on my back, I'm sorry but I can not.

I am passing to physical pain because of this.

Even the strongest people have a breaking point, and.. I guess I've reached it.

Staying hidden is one thing, but being forced to fucking engage to someone I do not love is way more than a 'one thing'.

I just- what is their problem in the first place! Is it their damn life? No. Does it affect them? No. Will I come out? Yes. Do I regret what I just said? No.

If one person, {in this case my management} does not like your decisions, why can they not just, go away.

For the love of god I've got feelings too. Even though I'm a man, to have my feelings denied is so much to take.

I would love it if Modest! quit their job for us, I mean; what are the bonuses for that; They can finally find happiness because they will not keep up with us- Larry! They won't have to deal with fans and us getting mad every time they lower Niall's microphone and on top of that; we can all be happy while we enjoy our cappuccinos when sitting on our back-yard watching our families swim through our 5m deep pool.

Iv'e got it all planned out.

I just need those bitches to quit.

Let me tell you something. For all those homophobic's out there.

: Imagine if you're born with something different in your mind or body. You and some people do not see it as a bad thing. Though there is that other 50% of people who hate the difference inside of you, and in their eyes: that makes you different.

What do you feel? Love? For the ones who support you, of course.

But what do you feel when you remember that half of those god damnedpeople hate you with no mercy and cannot stand you for something that you did not decide? You feel loneliness, even though you've got someone on your back. That someone is not enough, though.

You feel betrayal. Because you thought world was fair.

You feel anger. Because your thoughts of the world turned out wrong.

You feel hot tears burning your eyes. Because you cannot change yourself for the world.

You can't let yourself go.

   But then there's some homophobics who play the ironic guys, too!

Ah I love that part.

You tell them all that, and they're all like: bUT I DON'T HAVE THAT DIFFERENCE!

And then I cannot wait to tell them; I guess that means you're fucking ordinary, HAH BITCH BUSTED.

Back to the topic, anyways.

You cannot think of yourself like that, right? Because you don't have an experience of that or whatsoever.

And just because you do not have an experience on that: you shouldn't judge other people for who they are or how they are.

I'm not saying different sexuality, other than straight, is a bad thing for you. Being gay isn't so much different, in fact.

I'm saying that for some people, it is such a bad difference and thing that makes those who are homosexual so sinful- when in reality, they are not.

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