EUPHORIA IS Painful [Mafia - FF] ✅

Chapter 18- Pt 2/2

Jungkook and Yn were outside Jungkook's mansion but still in his area. Jungkook wanted to keep her. His heart was clenching but there was nothing he could do. He never accepted the fact that he loved her and he was hating the way his heart was reacting getting separated from that girl. He kept a straight face not showing any emotions. One side of him was telling him to let her go and get back to his original self. And that's where he belongs to and that's what he was definitely gonna do.

Yn :" Are you seriously letting me go. I can never see you again? Why? Why are you doing this? Please stop me."

She looked at him knowing nothing will work at him at this moment, trying to save his face in her memories. As her eyes travelled from his eyes that held too many emotions but none was shown by its owner, to his nose, the scar on his left cheek and then his soft plum lips ,she wanted to kiss so badly but couldn't.

Jungkook stood there silently. He has been the best at hiding emotions and that's what he was doing right now. Showing his ability giving her cold looks that said she never mattered to him a bit.

Yn :" I know you never loved me..... Jungkook........"

She lost words also. Tears ran down her eyes as Jungkook felt an urge to kiss them and hug her so badly but surely he was not gonna do that.

Walking over to him, she put a hand on his cheek and leaned in to softly place her lips on his. Her tears fell on his cheek as she closed her eyes. Jungkook just stared at her. A part of him asking him to push her away, other part asking to kiss her back and keep her to him forever. He listened to none and just stood there silently looking at her tears rolling down her closed eyes storing the memory forever in his brain.

Soon enough rain started to pour down as she pulled back and both stared into each other's eyes. The difference was once eyes were full of emotions. And others showed nothing but coldness and hatred.

Yn: "I love you" 

He felt like his whole world stopped there as soon as those words escaped her mouth .His heart shattered in Million and billion pieces in a split of second .He never knew he have emotions to begin with.But he was feeling them now .The girl in front of him love him ,he was supposed to protect her ,to keep her in his arms but he was making her cry.He was sending her away .He was hating himself for everything .

They stood there,looking at each other,saying nothing.But it was the kind of nothing that meant everything.In his eyes,there was no trace of what had happened between them and she could feel something inside her break.She was sure he won't reply back but was it too much to hope for him to stop her.

So that was it. They were finally finally over.

They both were dripping wet in rain as she got no answer. Her heart was not able to take it anymore so she turned and started walking away as Jungkook's guard was waiting for her outside already. He would take her back and drop her off at Taehyung's place. She didn't look back once nor she had any courage to do so and soon enough she disappeared from his sight.

As soon as Yn left his sight he fell on his knees and yelled out of anger. First time ever in his life he felt this weak, felt his heart breaking into a million pieces. He didn't even know he has a heart to ach this badly. First time in his life tears ran down his eyes. He never cried before not even when his mother died.

He didn't want to accept he loves her. He hated the word "love". It was such a so called feeling for him and now this so called  feeling crashed him down. Jeon Jungkook who did not ever gave a fuck about anything or anyone is this world was on his knees crying his eyes out. This word "love " broke him in to several pieces which could never be mend again.