There's No Going Back

YDYGTNGB

A suicidal description.

Sorry sa wrong grammars!

Note: Walang basagan ng trip. I made this for anyone who wants to die..right now. I hope you realize what you're going to do.

PSYCH!

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"Your thoughts have destroyed you more than blades ever could "

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You're sitting at your desk.

You know it's time to go.

You said that to yourself over a million times, but this time you know.

For sure..

Is real.

You're tired, you're just so very tired!

Your parents pissed you off. Like school wasn't bad enough today.

You go to get the rope..

Or the knife..

Or the gun..

Or just whatever you choose to use because your Dad, desperate to leave.

You're ready!..

You think of it is some game. The first one dead, is the first one who wins.

No one's won.

But it's the perfect time and you're ready.

If you don't do it now, your just gonna look down on yourself even more forever.

You're gonna hate yourself even more.

No one knows, no one will know.

Until later on..

Instead of getting a paper and a pen..

You got the video camera along with a chair.

You're standing on the chair.

You decide to go with the rope..

You're gone instantly and the'll be no noise.

One side of the rope is tied to the top of your fan. While the other's already around in your neck.

You're in tears and you know it's for real this time. You can feel it..you turn on the video camera and you just stare at the red light, blinking upon your eyes.

You start to mumble out a few words..

"Mom and Dad. I'm sorry. I don't know why I'm sorry but I'm sorry. I just can't do this anymore. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm lost to myself and it seemed it's not be able to find my way back.

Please don't blame yourself, please. I love you both. Please tell my siblings the same.

Stay strong and stay safe. I'll see you all soon."

You say sorry to your best friend because you know you won't be there for him anymore.

Specially when he needs you more than ever.

You say sorry to everyone you can think of.

Even yourself.

You're sorry for not being strong anymore.

You're sorry for breaking down.

You're sorry for putting them through so much pain in their life.

You stare..

Once again at the light blinking upon your eyes.

One foot is off the chair now..

As you begin to mouth the word 'Goodbye', you have the remote control to turn off the camera in your right hand.

Your pointer finger on the off butt on the radio..

You click that button..

And as soon as you see that light to off..

You go off.. .. ..

Both feet are now off the chair.

That chair is on the floor and the room is filled with silence. . . .

You're dead!

You're gone!

There's no going back!

Everything is over. You don't have to live in pain anymore, but everyone else will.

What your parents gonna think?

What about your little brother or sister?

What do you think they gonna do?

You're dead!

You're gone!

There's no going back!

You ended your life just because the person you liked only thought of you as a friend?

You ended your life because that one teacher was harder on you than anyone else in the class because she were the only one that is going somewhere in life?

Your parents are home now..

They call your name, telling you that they're home. Just like they normally do whenever they get home.

But something's different..

You don't answer.

They don't hear your voice.

They get worried.

Cause you always answer.

They come up stairs, thinking you are sleeping or showering.

Your Mom opens your bedroom door and screams at the top of her lungs. And with that, she instantly passes out.

Your little sister hears her comes up after her. She screams, "Daddy, help!" She rans over with you hitting you like begging you to wake up, "Wake up! Wake up! Please, stop. Wake up!"

But you don't answer, you're not waking up.

Cause you're dead.

You're gone.

There's no waking up. There's no going back!

Your Dad comes running up stairs and all he could do is..

Stare.

He watches her baby girl pulling back and forth on the rope. He sees the video camera and he sees the chair but he doesn't move.

He stiff as a board and he cries..

Your Dad never cries.

He picks up the phone and called 911, he came barely get the words, "My daughter committed suicide." but of his mouth, he's in tears.

Your little sister stares at your Dad.

He hangs up and she jumps right into your Daddy's arms, crying harder than ever.

She's too young to understand completely but she knows you're already gone, she knows you're already dead and she knows that you are never coming back.

Everything is over..

The cops finally arrived, they take your Mom out to your room and push your Dad and sister out of your room.

Now, they're sitting in the living room. They take your body down of those ropes and lay you down on the stretcher.

They cover your body and out you go!

Just like that..

In the blinked of an eye, everything happens and everything was over.

You're dead.

You're gone.

And there's no going back!