There's No Going Back

The End (realize)

Nothing is the same..

2 weeks have passed and your Mom still stares out the window in more than half of the day. Sometimes even the whole day.

Your little sister still has a return to her school.

Your Dad was forced to go to work's wick to pay the bill for your wake and funeral.

Eventually, they found the strength to go back into you room.

Your door has a bit open for 2 months.

The rope is still laying on the floor. The same place the cops put it.

And the video camera still sitting on the table. They don't even dare to watch that video.

It will never be seen..

They slowly pick up the ropes and throw it in the garbage. Chills ran up their spine and your Mom basically in tears.

They brushed off your bed making it neat, like they used to do every morning after you went to school.

Your desk was empty. It didn't have those little sticky notes you still leave when you run to the bus saying, "Have a good day Mom, remember to smile!" or "Have fun to work Dad, smile it is!"

You pretended to be so happy..

You've even tricked yourself!

Your bed was made and your room was clean. They shut the door and they remained to shut it.

Your school is still in the stress..

You thought no one cared and you thought no one know this too.

Remember that girl, doesn't know to being your lab partner?..

Yes.. she cuts everything on that night out 'cause she thinks it her fault that you died.

Remember that boy that tripped you by accident, looked at you and didn't say sorry?..

Yeah.. he's in suicide of there'll be, five days a week in the hospital because he feels that smile could've saved your life and he think to give that to you.

Do you remember the teacher that was hard on you that day?..

She put down her job because she felt she wasn't suited to teach anymore.

You're dead, you're gone and there's no going back..

4 years have passed now..

Your little sister is now 15 years old. She started a club..

It's in her school, dedicated to you..

Secrets

That's how she calls it. The club is warm for keeps to speak their hearts for that anyone judging them. They could say anything they want to. And talked about anything they needed to.

If they were suicidal, they always had someone to talk to.

That was your problem, you didn't want to talk to anyone. You had everything battle than side of you.

You acted as if you were the happiest kid on the planet and you acted as if you were the perfect playoff.

You play that happy characters so well that even yourself, started to believe it.

You would be so happy all day..

And as soon as you laid at bed that night, the thoughts came back.

A little fight between you and your parents could've set you off. But what everything inside of you battles up for years. You just hate your limits.

You're gone.. you're dead. Now, there's no going back..

Your room will never be occupied..

Your Mom still cries every single night..

Your Dad isn't a strong as he used to be..

And you little sister will never grow up with you by her side, moving her in the right direction.

She needed you..

Your best friend stilled to warm up.

He needed you..

Your parents don't know what to do anymore.

They needed you..

Your school now has a club, dedicated to you.

So teens will not make the same mistakes as you did.

Your life was precious..

And you took it away in a blink of an eye!

All you needed..was a smile.

It's all you needed to slow you..

That everything will be okay

but since you're gone..

Just no people cared, people always have cared and people always will care.

You were just wait to upset to see that like them. You were just to caught up in the fact that you thought no one cared.

When the truth was..

More people cared about you than you ever thought they would.

And you know what sucks?

It sucks that you see that..

Now, that you're gone.

And you didn't see that when you were still here.

Your tan will never be the same.

A girl is gone.. A special girl.

A girl who thought no one cared.

Everyone cared!.. I promise you!

They care..

They always have cared and

Always will care.

They loved you..

And no matter what..

they will still ALWAYS loved you.

The End

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"The light at the end of a tunnel is a train."

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