l e t t e r s - b n h a -

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o c h a k o

Dear Katsuki,

remember
how you saved me from them?
I do.
I'm so happy you did.

how you comforted me?

when you stopped me from suicide?
I do.

remember how you never left my side?
I do.
I felt protected.

remember how we had a petty fight?
I do.
that's when I was taken.

I was put in a cold dark room,
it was terrifying.

I was abused everyday,

I thought of you to keep myself sane.

remember how I thought of accepting?
to be a villain?
I do.
but I thought of you, so I refused.

remember how we stayed in the hospital together?
you never left me.
thank you for that.
I kept remembering the room.
when you weren't there.
I do. I cried.
remember how you stayed with me
thank you.
but that was too much.

Katsuki, I miss you.
you're gone.
I can't do this without you.
I can't stay sane.
I can't be happy.
my expression turned dark without you.
no smiles.
just pain.
no love,
just loss.

I love you, Katsuki,
you were the best thing to happen to me.
I may disappoint you with my next choice,
but then I'll be with you.

remember how I couldn't read your letters?
I do.
I can read them now that your gone
I can't read them without sobbing.
I'm numb. but I still love you.

that's it. I can't take this.
i'll run away. you know why?
because the class.
they didn't stop you.
deku knew you'd die.
he knew I may die.
I hate them all.

I'm running away.
my only possessions are your letters
I love you.

they caught me.
the heroes and class yelled at me
asking me why.
I didn't answer.
I left the room.

I'm hiding from everyone now,
but now on purpose.
it's to be with you
you may be mad,
but I'm not.

well this is it.
I'm on the roof.
the same roof where you stopped me.
you stopped me from dying before.
but now your not here.

the door opened, it was Deku.
he's asking me why I'm up here.
wonder how he knew I was here.
I told him I needed fresh air
he's trying to hold a conversation.
I don't want to talk to anyone.
except you.

"I'll be there soon."
he left.
I wasn't talking to him.
I was talking to you.
I'm not sane without you.
I'm inching closer now,
bit by bit.
I love you Katsuki.

I love you.

-Ochako