Time Machine

Chapter 2

Ariana's POV(before going to the wedding)
Today must be the happiest day of his life, I should be happy for him but why?... What is this feeling I should be happy for them but why does my heart ache that much... I can't stop my tears from rolling down my cheeks. When I look at myself at the mirror I can't help but remember our memories together and it makes my heart ache that I can't even tell you or anyone in the world, I should be the only one to know this because I don't want to ruen lives of others especially you. I should have told you this sooner, I don't know if I am being a coward or I am just afraid to lose you because I needed you, you completed me, your the missing piece of my life and I can't live without you because I love you. Days before I met him I was someone who doesn't care about the world, I didn't even care when people die in front of me and saw how they suffered. I was lonely... I didn't have friends because they think of me as a robot without emotions they even bully me but I didn't care. Some were afraid of me because of the thaught that I won' t be there for them when they needed help because I am emotionless after all. But all changed in the day I met him... It still makes me laugh when I remember the time he was so persistent to be my friend I would never forget what you replied me with... You never stopped even how many times I rejected you to be my friend. I got irritated and I had to say everything I had in my mind. "stop! aren't you afraid to be friends with a freak like me? I am too different from other people!" and then tears fell down from my cheeks and I felt glad that I was able to show all of my emotions for the first time, because of this I fell into my knees. "But isn't different good? I mean everyone is different and it's great to be different because you have something that everyone doesn't. It means your special" he said with a smile as he wiped my tears away. I didn't know why but I felt warm inside... what is this feeling. "Can I be your friend then?" as he gave his hand to me "sure! thank you for accepting me" I said with a warm smile he then pulled my hand and both of us ran and we became friends till then. We were just friends... but why do I feel jealous when he is together with the girl he likes? why does my mouth taste bitter all of a sudden, where did the sweetness go? I didn't notice until now, that feeling of warmness when I see his smile  and those times when I was always jealous , it was a feeling called love. I tried my best to control my emotions because I didn't want to argue with you because I don't want that warming smile of yours to fade. I was always happy when I see your smile even if your smiling because of someone else. I feel so warm and safe when I'm with you, I can't help it, I want to be with you and have a beautiful life with you but I'm too late... "Ariana it's time to go!" "umm coming!"...