I'm sorry I couldn't find the right words or phrases to write something about the word "change".
I've thought of numerous plots, been even considered coining from my own experiences, but unfortunately I end up deleting the words that have been scribbled turning the entire page of this note blank.
A dear friend have suggested this word to be one of the subjects of my sad short story and honestly I find it challenging and even impossible to be done. I almost abandon the idea of writing it, err sorry reading this might offend you in some way but since I'm writing this one in an unfiltered manner I hope my full-pledged honesty would be enough to justify these craps that I'm about to uncover.
Deep inside I knew why I couldn't write about that word. Call me a hypocrite for saying that I'd rather stay the same than undergo that god-forsaken word that even in my littlest thoughts wouldn't come up crossing. I can't change. Or maybe I have. Send me to the pits of hell for I don't know how or why.
Funny this is not a sad short story at all and I hated that my frustrations has created nonsensical sentiments about my ruined identity. But I'll be damned if I stopped writing what my heart concerns for now and I'm sorry again for this pen just keeps on moving the way my mind can control it.
Now you've just wasted your time reading about my foolishness and I know it couldn't help you any better to be there on the place or situation you really desire to be. But hearing the word, the one I've been frustrating about, might as well trigger the same thoughts that had been running on my mind since last night.
What does the word really meant for you? We need not talk about it expressly for we both understand now that the mere thought of this word sends different sensations to our souls.
I didn't know that writing this would change me, though I'm clueless to the fact of what am I before I decided to draw my pen on the paper. I am the worst writer ever, sorry if this hurt your eyes when you see it on your news feeds. I would completely understand if you decide to unfriend me. It's difficult to be weird after all.
