I would love to have one of those cliche, wattage, love stories. I really would. the truth is I know that's not gonna happen.
I have come to terms with the fact that I am going to have crushes, massive crushes even. but the thing is, I know I won't fall in love. I have had no traumatic experience to make me say that. I can't say I don't believe in love because I have defiantly seen couples in love with each other. I know that love exists and I will love. I just will never be in love.
I have also, after years and years of contemplation, realised I am fairly attractive. I'm not hot or smoking or what ever else, but I'm not as ugly as I thought.
I think guys might find me hot or I might say even go as far as having a crush on me (not to sound conceit or any thing) But no guy will ever fall in love with me. And that's a fact I will learn to be alright with.
I used to dream of the big wedding with a massive love story to go with it but I know that will never happen.
However the thing is I know I want a kid. I will figure something out but I know for certain I won't die alone. I might die with no "love of my love" beside me, but I do know one day when I die I will have my child next to me.
people will read this and think. "great... well done?" and I don't need you to care. I just want to get it out.
