Chosen!!

The Ultimatum!!

There was pooja at my home and all relatives had gathered, I was all active walking around, helping mom, went to my Bharatanatyam classes, I had joined classes recently with my own income, that feeling of  paying your own bills is the best version of proudness.
After classes, all my cousins gathered home, that was when the actual pooja began and a beautiful vibe was filled in air, my eldest cousin sis also showed up after a long time, we girls dolled up and joined the others, the pooja continued, people kept adding on, most of them were seen faces,some where those who were the tag holders of #Lame category ,the pooja was completed and all of them rushed to finish their last and the least part of job that was filling their tummy,in rounds they ate the dinner,our part was different from theirs we did the serving part, always a different energy booster striked when there are people around, we did a lot of work and finally to reward our efforts,there was cool breeze from the balcony that reminded me about him, wished if he was here too, the worst thing was being a lazy bug I cleaned the entire kitchen area,a new MAKEOVER was given to it, when my parents were shocked I gave them the best reason, there is pooja at home people come and it also creates an image,but what actually was running in my brain was "incase he comes tomorrow then he should feel nice about people at my home and finally my home", another 45 min and most of them had eaten up, so we were the ones left and we ended up troubling each other and finally the dinner session was complete.
There were more than 3 families that had to sleep under the same roof that night, hence there were adjustments here and there, finally after everything settled down, I got off my clothes, got freshed and we walked down stairs.
Here is the best part
It was 3 of us in the midnight, me and my other two cousin sisters were relaxing in my Hall,we had our girl talks ON!!, during this session all of us had a confession round and we did it honestly!!
Each of us dealt with different stories, weird people on way and unwelcoming problems.
That was when my eldest sis spoke about him, I dint want his topic to be discussed on that day, cause I dint want to freshen up my levels of hope,excitement, but then she spoke something that blew out my network connections , I was totally short circuited after knowing that  it was hard to believe about the stuff she had blabbered, I wished that she would be lying, hoped that she hadn't told me about that never ever, but things happen and what has happened has to be accepted cause there is no process of reversing.
Before I could react the way I had already reacted in my head, I reacted the opposite, in the most unexpected calm way, I told "I wish them good luck and I'm happy for him,I had doubted it back then but I wasn't sure", that night I had to face the most unacceptable ,unexpected, destructive truth, though it was true she hadn't made it up,there was one person who was devastated after listening to that,was that so simple like how she said, she took a promise that I should never ask him about this,how could I digest the fact that " He is in a relationship from past 5and 1/2 year and his love interest is one of his moms relative, even before I could burst she told they were committed since their PU that was when the anger in me had raised to peaks, the lights were all off, because of which my face was not seen expressive that night, putting a fake smile, holding on to a fake voice tone , I tried my best to cover it all and I succeed in it, but what about my never ending wait I had for him, how could I overcome that,it turned out to be a worst discussion ever when my sister started making up these lines, I don't know where does she find it from and why did she have to open up these to me, "I really wish,but don't know how, I want you guys to get together, I know it's not going to happen now, but really wish it happens you guys could make a good pair too"and she adds on "but don't keep any hopes from him, nothing is gonna happen very soon even if it has to happen, you guys would be together when he is bored of everything else and finally he will come to you", at that moment I wished if she was my punching bag , I would have utilised it, to the best!!,after listening to all this I was trying my best to act normal but she was in her active mode by making me feel more worse, instead of talking something better that could be more convincing and soothing,something that was more sensible to digest so that finally I could get over him, she did the opposite of it. I could sense the emotion when that phrase came true in my case" One's misery is another topic of interest to laugh on", it was a lot for that night, all the three monsters went up stairs and slept, I dint know if I had to cry or celebrate my pathetic situation, I dint do either of them I curled up and slept, but the worse thing was I couldn't sleep properly how could he not tell me long back , I wouldn't have been a fool, imagining stuff, hoping that some day we would be together, he could have helped me that way instead, that day I hated him, felt like he never cared about me. What would have happened if he had told about his relationship back then, I would cry a little when compared to the present and tried my best and move on unless holding back like I did always, as it became more darker ,I also gave a thought that even though if things came across my way after a long period,yet she was the medium through which I finally could move on ,so she helped me by telling me stuff and there is a saying right "whatever happens, happens for good", I thought the same and slept peacefully.
Don't know what good could it bring in my life, stay tuned❤❤.