Chosen!!

Lost in Memories!!

There were times when I had dedicated my works for you, I don't know why I felt like sketching your picture, it was the initial stage of my sketching  works, when my sketches were mostly imperfect and I sat down and started sketching his pic , I wanted to surprise him with this, thought it would bring a smile on his face,but I was really scared what if this sketch wasn't even comparable to his original picture,what if my handsome hulk dint look the same in this sketch, I was extremely careful with this sketch though , I tried my best to sketch it good but it wasn't any comparison to his charming face, nothing happened the way I had expected, I felt like giving up, but there was something that held me back,so I decided to stare at his picture for about 5 minutes that was when I fell in love with him again and I started sketching it again but this time it wasn't by copying the picture in my gallery but copying the same from my mind, I dint expect it would turn out to be good,it was most likely to him,I was the happiest,had to hide it from everyone, even now it's hidden,there are certain things that has to be kept as a secret. The last time he had come home for inviting us for his nephew's naming ceremony, I really wished that I could leave everything and go along with him, at least I could spend some time with him, I wanted to attend the function to have a short conversation , but there were no plans made at home,neither could I show my interest, I was tied up in a situation where I had to pretend that I dint know him at all except the first meet, that's the worse, we had been to native, he had also been to his home, my parents planned to go to his place and meet his nephew, I was the most happiest, that blush on my face was boosted to 99% before anybody could notice I scooted from that place, I packed my clothes, I had kept a special pair of clothes, matched up accessories along with it, I wanted things to go good, at least that day I wanted to spend a little time with him,all excited we went to native , we covered most of the place, the last day was reserved to go to his place, but I had no clue how did that get cancelled again, that was when I felt my efforts were all worthless, nothing really helped the way I felt at that moment, I wish I could go out with him, spend some time on the shore, but they all remained to be a part of my dream.I don't know why whenever I had put efforts to meet him, I could never, this is just not it, I was trying for medical colleges after my entrance test, my entrance dint go that great, I thought incase I don't get through any MBBS college in bangalore, I would end up going to his college, that was the reason I wrote the entrance test for that college too, best part was I got selected for the first round counselling but my bad, dad wanted me to get into ELECTRONICS AND COMMUNICATION, I dint know much about the course ,I was least interested in it, my only interest was him or medicine , the results of first day left me depressed, I couldn't sleep the entire night, I wanted to go there, but then I couldn't, the next day was my turn but all seats for electronics was filled, I felt disappointed, though there was another chance that was BIOTECHNOLOGY, there was bio in this term I felt a little interested in this topic and somehow me and dad left to his college, it was way too far from home, had to deal with extreme traffic, there wasn't proper transport facility to my place, even after all these odds, I chose that college, because of him, but that day we reached late ,when I stood in the course selection procedure ,there was only 1 seat of biotechnology left to be chosen and that was also snatched away by another girl in front of me, I felt devastated as if all my efforts were gone in vain,I dint shed any tears that day because my dad would feel more weak, I stayed strong came home, felt as if I was the biggest loser of all, I had prayed God if it happened that I get through this college I can expect for us to be together and if I don't get in then, I wouldn't have any future with him, when the second option was chosen I couldn't smile normally, all my hopes were dead, eventually it became a dream to be with him, roam around,holding each other's hands like those beautiful never ending bond ,staying together forever , but that some day would never come, today I wonder why did I have to love him this crazily, He had not only lived in my interests but also in my choices, I wish I could forget him and move on, but he is extremely different, weird sort of a person, whom I can never hate, neither can I opt to love him again.
He was the only guy who could drive me crazy in the trap of love, even without putting in any efforts.
There is no chance of me being a part of his life, though I wish someday I get to spend beautiful moments with him..