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Someone You Loved-Jungkook

Warning-
This chapter deals with suicide, and depression if you are not feeling well enough to read this please don't I only do this for entertainment. Also play the song to get you even more in the mood plus you'll understand more. Plus you might cry a little bit so get your tissues ready.
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Y/N POV
I need somebody to heal, Somebody to know,Somebody to have,Somebody to hold,It's easy to say. I loved but he never felt the same. He never cared I feel so helpless. I need someone to help me get through this pain. But he was the only person who was left. I have no one left. I got nothing to live for. He left me. With nothing. I left all my walls down for him I trusted him he told me he loves me, he cared, he will build me back up, he will guide me through the darkness. It hurts so much. Is this how mom felt when dad left. I never understood why she killed herself but now I see. This pain hurts more than getting shoot. It's feel like someone just ripped my heart and took my air supply. I got used to being someone he loved. He numbed the pain. Then he pulled the rug. He hurt me more than anyone. He yelled at me " Your not worth anything.I never loved you . You are so pitiful. No one will ever love someone as broken as you. Why don't you kill yourself. No cares if you do. You are a waste of space. I HOPE YOU DIE, YOU UGLY BLACK PEICE OF SHIT". He slammed the door in my face. He's right no one loves me everyone who loves me is gone. Maybe I should die. No one will care anyways. He broke me like no one else. I just wanted Somebody to heal, Somebody to know, Somebody to have, Somebody to hold. And Now the day bleeds. Into nightfall. And you're not here. To get me through it all. I guess I got used to be someone you loved. So I did the next thing I did. I know I promised him I wouldn't cut but he doesn't care anymore. So I grabbed my razor. Put the bathtub water on. While waiting, I wrote a note for Jungkook "I wish you all the best I'm sorry I was never good enough for you. I'm sorry but I came broken. I'm sorry for everything I put you through. Goodbye, Jungkook." I rest it on my counter. When it was full I stepped in leaving the water on. I started cutting until the whole bathtub was red. I just sat there waiting for darkness to consume me. It did I felt my soul leave my body.
Jungkook POV
I know I shouldn't have said those things to Y/N but I was just so mad at work. I didn't mean to take my anger out in her . I gave her some space that's the least I could do. I went to Jin's house. I explained everything to him. He yelled at me " Aish, are you stupid Y/N Is FUCKING SUICIDAL YOU ARE HER REASON TO LIVE. GI FUCKING CHECK ON HER YOU IDIOT." I got in my car. Driving to our house she want answering my calls. God Dammit don't do something stupid Y/N. I ran into house hearing the tub ruining. I saw a puddle of blood please don't tell me. She promised she wouldn't. I opened the door and I saw her lifeless body in the bathtub with blood all over. I called the ambulance and told them to hurry. He once radiant brown skin turned dull. Her lips  purple. The ambulance came in and rushed her to the hospital. The have me a letter I read it and started crying she killed herself because of me and wants me to live a happy life. I can't live with myself knowing I killed the love of my life. The doctor said I'm sorry about your loss but we got your daughter out just in time. My daughter. That's right you were pregnant you were planning on telling him but everything came crashing down on you.
———————————————It's has been 2 years Y/N. Aliyah looks just like you she has the same smile, laugh and eyes when she sees something amusing. She reminds me of you. It's hard being a single father but we are getting by. You are looking over us I know you are. I love you. See you soon my love. He felt your presence saying for him to not worry and that you love him. He walks away a holding your 2 years old daughter hand.
A/N- I cried a little bit while writing this. This is the saddest one shot I have written in this entire book. Hope you enjoyed. Wish you all the best. I purple you. And I'm a run run run. Away byeeee.