Insanity

I wanted too scream, preach to the world my anger frustration and other emotions that shrouded my vision. grasp my head in my shaking hands and wrench my mouth open until it is disjointing itself from my scull. But the word 'scream' is not enough to describe the bottled up feeling inside my heart that had been wrapped and boxed up until it was merely a small quivering dot that was never noticed.

That dot became larger and tore from my heart and it screeched into the night. But it was not enough, I dug my fingers into the soft soil beneath my feet hoping for something amazing to happen for it to wash away the unwanted feelings that dwelled within me.

Not a scream or speck of dirt would pull me out of the flames that I danced with. The harsh flames that continued to scorch my insides did not flicker nor dim, they held on strong feeding my body with anger.

I wouldn't of been surprised if the horns of the devil sprouted on my head or if the wicked tail cut its way through my tail bone. This would never stop how much I would try. I would always dance with fire and play with the darkness. It's in my blood

The desperate cries of someone cut through the air but it went unnoticed my my ears and body. At this moment any rational thought within me had withered away leaving the burning rage to do as it pleased.

It tangled around my limbs and forced its way into my veins,stripping my flesh without any consideration to the state it was putting my body in.

The pain was unimaginable tearing away at my nerves leaning me towards the edge of death. But I wasn't dead it was still burning by body like an iron at a heat even higher than its limits.

But at that moment, it was all gone. The pain and anger had dissipated and I lie in the darkness black water lapping apon my tingling skin.
There were no noises and no lights, my feet began too sink deeper into the dark water it's chilling touch eating away at my body.

I struggled against the water as it slowly dragged me down. I thrashed about I'n an attempt too keep my head above the surface.
It was no use as the water merely pulled me further too it's gloomy depths.

It felt nice for awhile, maybe it was the silence and calm hum that caressed my body. it wiped away the tears and bad memory's that would of harmed the innocent mind of an eight year old child.

I could feel a happier self return to my mind but even so the uneasiness hid within the dark corners, along with a small piece of hatred that would soon become a beginning of my puzzle.

My unconsciousness was uncertain and I was slipping in between. Sometimes I could feel a soft pelt of fur heating my little hands and other times I was in the void of darkness.

Beep beep beep beeb

Small electronic noises woke me from my sleep and I gripped onto some white sheets that kept me warm but not as warm as the fur.

The room I lay in was white a big window let bright morning light spew into the room and I found myself squinting at the cleanliness.

Where was I?

Small murmurs soon became noticeable outside a door. But even so I could hardly hear them.

I ignored it and found more interest in the white bandage that wrapped around my left shoulder and collar bone.
I gave it a small prod and found myself yelping, It hurt so bad.
Just after that small sound escaped my lips the door burst open and a petite lady stood there, her light blond hair fell down her back in waves and her golden eyes burned holes into me as she intently stared.

Someone else barged straight in behind her and snapped her from glaring at me.

"Hi darling" she greeted with a small comforting smile on her face "what's your name"