Struggle and Strive

STRIVE: Close

my pulse is beating

out of control

pounding, coursing

through my body

untameable

uncontrollable

there is no stopping it

as you lean in close

and my pulse is beatingbeatingbeating

and i don't know what to do

and i'm so confused

and i don't know what is happening

and i go for the hug

and you smile

and hug me back

and then i smile

pulling away

look to my shoes

when i look back up

you're leaning close again

you're eyes are closing

and i don't know what to do

i'm so confused

(like the little blonde i am)

and there's just the beatingbeatingbeating

blood hot on my cheeks

until i feel myself meeting you halfway

and halfway doesn't feel as much like a compromise

but perhaps a gain

except then i leave

and i'm not looking back

and i'm biting my lip

and i never see you again.