Lifeline (Tweek & Craig)

Chapter Eighteen

Tweek

There drive home wasn't more than 5 minutes, but it felt longer to Tweek as he watched Craig drive with one hand on the steering wheel and the other in an almost closed fist by the gear control. Tweek didn't have to ask if he was ok; he could feel that Craig was in an awful mood. So naturally, Tweek was nervous and believed it was his fault that Craig was upset.
   When Craig tried to give Tweek a reassuring smile, his smile never touch his eyes and his eyes watched him coldly. So Tweek reverted his eyes to the window. Tweek knew that from the outside looking in, it must have been strange for Craig to drive up and see him and Bradley talking with no knowledge of what came before. Tweek also knew that because Craig was too proud, he would never ask questions, and unfortunately, Tweek was too nervous to ask him what was bothering him.
           Despite how much Tweek disliked Bradley, he didn't want them to fight over him. Knowing both personalities very well, Tweek knew it wouldn't go well for Bradley. Bradley was stubborn and smart. He wasn't the strongest fighter, yet he would never turn away from a fight which in the end is dangerous.
          As Craig pulled into the garage, Tweek was glad to be back but nervous about talking about his past while Craig was in this mood. When Craig parked his car, the moment he cut the engine, he got out so fast it rattled Tweek's nerves. Tweek took a deep breath, hoping that the freeing cold hair would help calm him, as he followed slowly behind Craig.
            When Craig turned back, he looked at Tweek with confused eyes before holding out his hand to him. When Tweek took his hand, the butterflies that had hide from the chaos Tweek felt, slowly came out of their hiding places. Craig's hand felt so soft and smooth that it brought back tender memories of them together.
           As they entered the garage entrance of the building, Tweek wanted to thank Craig for coming to get him but hesitating to speak when he saw Craig piercing blue eyes already staring at him. In Tweek's fashion, he shyly avoided Craig's stare. As they waited for the elevator, Craig gently pressed Tweek against the wall before leaning on him, resting his head on top of Tweek's. Tweek heart fluttered, and he smiled as he wrapped his arms around him. Now that they were almost home, Tweek could feel Craig let his guard down which help Tweek relax a little.
         "Thanks for coming to get me," Tweek said as they enter the elevator. Tweek's voice was so soft that if he didn't have Craig's full attention, Craig would not have heard it.
          When the door closed, Craig backed Tweek into the wall again, lifting his chin to place a light kiss on his lips. Tweek's heart was pounding as he eagerly waited for Craig to give him a more passionate kiss. When Craig didn't, Tweek frowned and looked up at him. Craig who didn't move an inch, teasing him, pressed his forehead into to Tweek's.  At that moment, Tweek couldn't remember what he was so worried about minutes ago.
           Tweek has long searched for happiness, now that he was finally experiencing it, he feared his heart would stop beating. It was still hard for him to process how he went from being homeless to having the guy of his dreams remind him that the world isn't so bad to live in. When they got to their floor, Craig walked him out of the elevator and into the apartment.
     As Tweek took off his outerwear to put away, Tweek remembered the pastry he got Craig, so he took it out of his bag to give him. When Tweek turned to hand it to him, Craig's eager eyes riled up the butterflies in Tweek, and when Craig took off his shirt, part of Tweek was excited the other surprise as he let Craig take him away.
           A random thought crossed Tweek's mind, just as Craig fingers tangled with his, keeping him pinned in place as he moved inside him. Tweek wondered what the hell had happened to Craig's pastry? When Craig was about to release, he pulled away, turned Tweek on to his side before continuing.
         When the passion was over, Craig who breaths were heavy laid on top of him. Something Tweek have noticed is that Craig's preferred place to sleep was on top of him. Tweek didn't mind. He loved the feeling of being protected. Still, he thought it to be adorable. When Tweek smiled, unaware that Craig could see his expression, Craig lifted his head slightly before kissing his shoulder.
         "Why are you smiling?" Craig asked now gently bitting his shoulder.
         Tweek wanted to say because he was having difficulties breathing yet he didn't want Craig to move, so instead, he replied. "I don't know what I did with your pastry."
          Craig laughed. "Oh, I'll find it. If you are good, maybe I'll share it." Craig said playful, which cause Tweek's heart to pound loudly again.
           Tweek smiled. He wanted to nod but couldn't. Craig gently rolled to the side so that he could face Tweek. Tweek bit his lips which forced Craig to closed the gap kissing him again. Craig's eyes became hard to read, which made Tweek wonder what he wanted to ask him. Finally, after a few minutes, Craig asked, "Does it hurt?"
             It took Tweek a moment to figure out what he meant, then he thought about sex and replied. "Not with you."
             When Craig looked like he wanted Tweek to elaborate, Tweek continued.
             "Bradley and I dated for a year. Sex happened almost immediately after meeting up for the first time. I never planned for it, so we were unprepared, and it was so painful that I didn't want to do it again," Tweek replied. Tweek's heart ached as thought about that moment and how scary that experience was.   "However, Bradley threatened to end the relationship if we didn't do it again, and so I did my own research on how to prepare myself, which help a bit. I think we had sex almost every day if not a few times a day. No matter how much I prepared, it was always painful. However, with you, it's not, and you're much bigger." Tweek added. When Tweek finished and looked over at Craig, he was shocked to see Craig's stunned expression.
             After a few minutes, Craig asked. "Your first time, was it something you wanted?" The question caught Tweek off guard. It was the first question his mom had asked him when she noticed how depressed Tweek was after his first sexual experience. Even then, he wasn't sure how to answer.
             "I don't know. It was what Bradley wanted, and he said he loved me. I guess I just wanted to know what it felt like to be loved by someone who wasn't my parents," Tweek said, and before he realized it, tears had poured from his eyes. Craig's heart was breaking, as he reached over to wiped his tears away.
             "I can promise you that as long as you don't hurt me, I'll never hurt you deal?" Craig whispered.
          Tweek smiled nodding. Then he started from the beginning of how his and Bradley relationship came to be.