Never Alone"
I waited for you today
But you didn't show
No no no
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
And though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
And though I cannot see you
And I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate
'Cause you're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
We cannot separate
You're part of me
And though you're invisible
I'll trust the unseen
I cried out with no reply
And I can't feel you by my side
So I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone
By Barlow Girl.
This song makes me think.
We are all human and every once in a while we are going to make a mistake.
Everyone does it, and if you can read this and say you haven't. Stop lying to yourself.
We are all our own devil, it's part of human nature to intervene and to meddle with things we shouldn't. To seek revenge and to feel passionate. Rage and spite.
But sometimes those mistakes sacrifice things you hold dear.
As you grow up people will drift away and it never hurts any less.
Take for the instance of loosing someone you love.
It could be over something completely stupid. A silly disagreement, a mistake which can then be fueled by idle gossip, and even more increasingly as of recent, social media.
Here's the thing about mistakes. They happen and no matter what you do, you cannot take it back.
Everything gets so confusing that eventually it all falls apart and turns to hatred.
You feel isolated and confused and lost.
There's a giant part of you missing.
You don't just stop loving someone, the feelings are still there and it can be confusing as hell.
You go to tell them something and realize that, well you can't.
The person you knew understood you completely, the person you told everything seems miles away.
You might not see them, but are they still there. Backing you're every move, defending you.
That feeling off loss consumes you, but you cannot look weak. So you put on a smile and act as if everything is okay. Knowing that for them, they might just look at you and realize inside you are screaming in pain for them. You want to hold them tight and never let go. That sense of love and security.
But society tells us that this is not OK. You keep up a strong front, you stand your ground, despite all matters fighting against you, and to be honest, society makes you a coward. What is bravery if you stand there and let yourself and that one person hurt. That is a most cowardly act. I scream at myself for it. I hate myself for it. But society teaches us that what others think of us is more important. What your friends and family want you to do is more important than being true to yourself and bravery. Let me tell you this. Society is wrong.
People who believe in spirits or Gods may believe in a physic connection, or even an emotional, a spiritual connection.
I like to use this as a comparison for the connection between someone. That connection you have where you can tell by the expression on their face, the way they stand exactly what they are thinking. When you are so in sync that you finish each others sentences, you feel what they feel. That person is in your heart, soul and mind.
That person is a part of you.
They don't need to be with you, but you can still tell whats happening.
That doesn't allow you to separate, maybe in human form that person is invisible, but their love and their life is still there.
Maybe right now you're invisible, but I trust the unseen.
I will trust that mistakes have been made.
That that friendship will remain with you.
I trust you to know that for everything, you're always in my heart and soul and will never be without someone.
I trust that you know if I ever heard a bad word against you, no matter what pain we had caused one another, I would defend you to the ends of the earth.
I trust that you know if in years to come, you rang me at two in the morning saying you needed someone, I'd be right there.
No matter what you think and how you feel, you will never be alone.
There is always someone, you just have to find your way back.
I admit that I am human and that I have made many mistakes.
I admit that I am a coward for listening to the people around me and for not following what my heart tells me.
I wouldn't want forgiveness, I couldn't ask that, because we still did what we did.
Just understanding.
I am human, I regret my mistakes, but I have learned from them.
I have the scars to show it.
