Is this Love?

Chapter 10

( On the side are our Carter dream boys ) 

Mays P.O.V

Something in me inflates like an untied balloon.I feel a pang of jealousy erupt as cheers and whoops fill the room. I watch them kiss feeling completely empty not knowing if I should be happy that Becky got what she finally wanted or just plain sad.

Not being able to bear the sight anymore, I got up and left the room, without anyone realizing. I went back to my dark room and sat on my straw bed thinking about the kiss. I'm happy that she got what she always wanted but sad knowing Carter will break her heart 

Flashback

"May" Becky said sitting on my bed, eating marshmallows.

"Hmm" i replied busy studying for my physics exam tomorrow

"Do you think Carter notices me" she questioned looking at me her eyes pleading to say yes

I closed my textbook indicating im giving my full attention to her, after a long minute i said yes, her eyes brightened as her smile never left her lips

"really" she asked throwing the marshmallows to me, i nodded as i ate.

Since year 10 Becky has been with me, we share a unique bond that can never be failed. During College Becky started taking an interest in Carter.She talked about him more than i talk about food, which is a lot. She wishes to get married  to Carter and have junior Carters with him. Good luck with that!

"Oh my fuck imagine if me and him get married" she said excitement noted in her voice, i sighed here it goes again Carter Carter Carter. I got up turning the tv on not in the mood to hear more about Carter. Becky's lucky she's my best friend, if it was someone else who kept talking about Carter i would've already punched them in the face.

Getting comfortable in bed i held the tv remote putting on the latest horror movie "Insidious". 10 minutes had passed by, yet me and Becky hid our faces in the duvet frightened to look at the screen.

"Turn it off you cow, i cant watch anymore" Becky uttered

I laughed at her use of word and turned it off. Finally coming out of the duvet. Me and Becky shared a look before bursting into continuous laughter, after we calmed down a bit we just sat there the only hearing was our breathing.

"You know, i wish i was watching this with Carter rather than you" she sniggered

I groaned and punched her lightly on the shoulder, Becky S.T.O.P T.A.L.K.I.N.G A.B.O.U.T H.I.M i said emphasizing the him. She stuck her tongue out babyishly. Real mature.

"May i would love to know what happened between the two of you" she said

"Trust me you wouldn't" i replied, strolling through my Facebook messages

"You know what i wish May?" Becky said staring at the ceiling

"what" i said signalling her to go on

"Me and Carter kiss and that to in front of a huge crowd, so they all know he's mine" she said a smile tugging at her lips.

I looked at her, surprised at how much she wants Carter.

End of flashback

The scene of Becky and Carter kissing, replayed over and over in my head, but what I didn't understand was the mixed feeling inside of me. The confusion behind the kiss, the questions behind the kiss, the feeling. It's funny how so many questions can jump up at you from one word. It's like I'm bipolar because I feel so angry yet a dinky bit happy for her. I sighed, dreading when Becky would come back and boat about her and Carters kiss and already I am loathing it.