Is this Love?

Chapter 11

FLASH BACK

Beckys P.O.V

I always thought there would be an escape route for unfortunate events, like to just be sitting in Hogwarts miles away from my parents or in a deserted island with no distractions. But this time there was no such luck I was trapped by his wrathful curses and enveloped in this suffocating house that is called my 'home'.Tears were threatening my eyes, but I knew that I'm stronger than to cry for this unworthy nincompoop, I thought, even though this man is unsuccessfully my step father I will not as much as try to utter a curse towards him, for my mothers sake that is. He helped make my younger brother and his blood is running through his veins, so regardless of his madness I will respect him as much as I can loathe.

Anger slowly steamed through me as I now heard a glass whack on the wall. I scrunched my fists into balls 'please stop, please i beg you' I silently prayed, and made my way downstairs but my brother beat me to it , so I stood half way down the stairs waiting for my step father to stop. I heard a few more screams and then the living room door banged open and Robert my step dad stormed through the corridor and barged out the wooden front door.

I let out a deep breath I didn't realise I was holding and was incredibly glad he was out the house. I stepped down the stairs and sped to my mom in the living room to find her in tears refusing my brother Lucas's comfort. She was stubborn like that, she hated showing weakness. I stood their awkwardly choosing between sitting next to my brother on the comfortable couch or go and give my mom an encouraging hug. I sat next to my brother hugging myself.
Bright idea.

My brother gave me a ' what the heck ' look and I replied with a 'i know I'm a idiot ' look. To prove to him I'm not pathetic or to just show that I do care about my family i tried to console my mother but she just brushed me off and rushed upstairs.
Lucas stood up with his hand on his forehead "Why again?, he always does this what's his fucking problem." voicing my exact thoughts apart from one word. He banged his fists into the wall and barrelled upstairs aswell, leaving me hanging awkwardly.
Again.

End Of Flashback

"SHUT UP ABOUT YOU AND CARTER" She screamed at me as loud as she could, I was surprised my eardrums didn't burst. She stormed out leaving me aghast, my jaw was knee length and I was too stunned to find a way to replace it. Was that just May? Did we just break up? Did she just throw a jealous tantrum?

Questions were flooding me some astonished and some quite curious. I was cemented between being happy that I kissed Carter and we will live happily ever after in our mansion and jealous that I have more of a competition in getting Carter , if May likes him that is. My face felt too hot to think so I walked to the bathroom and sprayed called water on it .That gutted sensitivity kept hitting back at me like a out of control wrecking ball, that my best friend has left me, another person has dissolved from my life, just like my brother did when my step father died, don't get me wrong, it was a relief for all of us but it created more hardship in earning money which left behind my infirmed mother and me.

I came here to Syria to get away from my mother, from all the tension, to just run away from it all. But a cramp in my heart keeps telling me I've made the wrong decision of leaving my mother alone but then a elated beat replaces it telling me I've made a better decision of helping those who are in more famine and poverty. I lean on the sink contemplating that if I'm just a normal teen whose obsesses with a guy and May is the selfish brat who can't stand it, she should've taken her chance years ago . Before I let people trample all over me because of my weak and patheticness just like my step father and my brother. So now just to keep the only other person I care about I will do what's best .

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May's POV

We reached the dining room, which was empty. We sat down in silence, the only sound was the cooks bustling about making breakfast.

"May? Can I ask you something? But don't get angry okay?" Becky said, breaking the silence. I nodded to her, signaling her to go ahead.

"Are you jealous of me and Carter" she said, timidly. My eyes widened and I nearly choked at this.
Is she for real?

"Of course i'm not, why would you even say that? You know I hate him!" I spluttered, my heart rate suddenly increasing.

"Its just you kind of over-reacted before" she whispered, barely audible, looking quite sorrowed. Before I could reply, loud laughing and chatting interrupted us. I looked up and everyone else had come down for breakfast. I glared at Becky and hissed "this isn't over". I was pissed beyond words, again. Why were we suddenly fighting? We were perfectly fine before. I realized it was because of Carter and his meddling ways. I inwardly groaned. He is on a mission to destroy all forms of happiness in my life, I know he is.

Breakfast was served and as the rest of the class chatted away happily, the same thoughts ran through my mind, continuously. Am I jealous of Becky and Carter?. I shook my head, trying to rid the ridiculous thoughts. it was just a silly kiss. Or was it? I shook my head stifling my laughter, this isn't a CSI.

Slowly, people left the dining hall until there was only me and Becky alone, again. I wasn't sure if i was jealous about her kiss, so i had no answer for her.
It'd be better if i change the subject instead.

"Becky-" I said stopping midway as Yusuf came in smiling

"Good morning beautiful ladies" he said winking

I blushed and stared at Becky, her mouth was half open, she needs to get a grip
I stifled a laugh as i greeted Yusuf. " So i thought, today was your day off, and it would be awesome if we all hang out" he said smiling.

Great idea! This will surely take my mind off the kiss.

(Will be updated soon during the summer)