Have Faith In Me

I walked in the door to my bedroom. I put my books on my dresser and my purse on my bed. The house was silent, soon asshole will be home and all that peace and quiet will be over. I walked into the bathroom and washed my face, put on some light eyeliner and mascara and put on my work clothes. Blue jeans and the OC humane society T-Shirt with my name tag that reads "Alexandria". I checked the time 3:15... "ugh" I shuffled to the other side of the room and grabbed a granola bar.

"ALEX IM HOME" he slurred as I heard the front door slam. "IM HUNGRY ALEX!  GRAB ME ANOTHER BEER" he yelled across the house. "I have to go to work Nathan I don't have time! " I replied back. I heard him get up and start walking towards the other side of the house. I swiftly locked my bedroom door. and put a chair against it. "now listen, either you make me some food and grab me a beer. or your dogs go to the pound." I started to laugh but quickly stifled them. I hurried to the sliding glass door that led to the small little yard that my mom let me build for my dogs. "Carli, Manson,  home." I whispered to my two pit bulls. They hurried inside and shut the door. I could still hear him breathing on the door.

So, Hi Yes I'm Alex. My mom is an alcoholic, and has an alcoholic for a boyfriend. I have an older sister and a younger brother, Leah and Zack. I have 4 pets, My two American Pitbull Terriers Carli named after Austin Carlile and Manson named after Marilyn Manson. A black cat I found when he was a kitten, his name is Crowley and a garden snake, her name is Lucy. Yeah you don't really need to know their names but why not. My best friend Kayla, is like my sister, and Kirsten is my other best friend.

I put together a little bag of clothes and some money for the night. I put some food in the dog bowls and some food for Crowley. Dropped a dead mouse in the snake tank and walked out the backyard gate. Part of the back yard is blocked off for my dogs. Nathan has a dog who tried to kill Carli when I first got her and Manson as puppies.I think he is some sort of Great Dane mix with a rottie. Nathan thinks he runs the show. I got in my car and drove to work. I walked in the entrance and put my person behind the desk when a little girl and her mom walked in.

"Hi! My mommy said I get to get a puppy or a kitty!" the little girl smiled showing her missing front tooth.

"Well Hello!  I'd love to show you them." I said and walked them to the kennels.

"We would prefer a dog. My husband isn't a big cat person." she laughed.

"my dad isn't either."

They looked through the dogs for about a good thirty minutes and seemed to always come back to the same Pitbull, "Izzy is a brindle pit about 8 months" I informed them. "he is house trained but still needs obedience training. He knows sit, lay, heel and will come if you call him, but he won't stay." the little girl laughed.

"Mommy he is the one! " she said as Izzy licked her cheek.

"He is good with all age kids. He likes other animals and loves attention. I think he believes he is a lap dog because I fostered him for a few months when our kennels got full and he would always be in my lap. I have two pits, a cat, and a snake. My cat and him got along great."

"Well I think this is our guy! " the mother put her arm around her little girl.

It was about 6 when I got off work. I drove to Kayla's. Kayla and me had been friends since seventh grade, her mom was usually out of town on business, and I had a key to let myself in whenever I pleased.

"Kayla!" I yelled.

I heard a thud and a guy yell shit. I walked up the stairs to her room to see Mazin, her boyfriend, putting pants on and kayla with her shirt half way on.

"Well, well, well what do we have here? " I laughed as I threw Mazin's shirt at him.

"You Bitch!" Kayla yelled and threw a pillow at my face.

"Nice to see you too. So you guys want me to leave?  I can stay at Kirsten's tonight?" I said motioning to the door.

"No of course not. You guys wanna watch a movie or something? Alex you could invite Henry over! " she said winking. Henry is my ex boyfriend and we are also good friends with occasional benefits, like cuddling. "Yeah I'm down.ill go call him. "

I walked to my room...yes I have my own room at Kayla's....her mom likes me a lot. "Hey." I said as he answered the phone. "Hey babe, what's up? " he laughed. "I'm at Kayla's. Want to come over? We were gonna watch movies and Mazin is here." "Im down. Go take a shower though. I know that you had work today." I laughed. "Okay I'll see you in about an hour? " I asked. "Yep love you. " I blushed. "Love you too." I told them he was coming over and I went and took a shower. I got out and put on some booty shorts and a black tank top. dried off my hair and put it in a pony. Put on some mascara and brushed my teeth, and walked out of the bathroom  to see him sitting on the bed.

"Hey cutie" he said as I walked out. I smiled and he got up and hugged me and kissed me on the cheek.

"You smell good! " I said as he pulled away.

"Cologne does wonderful things." he said pulling me on the bed with him. We started to laugh and then he sat up and stared at me. I stopped laughing and held myself up with my elbows.

"What's wrong?" I said as he sighed. "There, uh, is this girl I'm talking to." he said as he looked at the floor. "She wants me to be her boyfriend, because we have made out and she thinks I owe it to her."

"what's wrong with that? " I asked sitting up and looking at him.

"Well I like you more and I think that she would hate me if I even did more than hug you."

"Henry, I like you too. and she can't get mad at you for what you feel..." I said and rubbed his back. He turned around and kissed me and laid me down on the bed. Slowly little kisses and then his speed increased, he was eager and i found it amusing. He slid his hand over my hip and I yelped. He stopped and looked down at my hip.

"Whats on your hip? " He asked reaching for the end of my shirt.

"Nothing" I said, while swatting away his hand.

He yanked my hand away and pulled up my shirt to reveal bandages on my hips and stomach.

"What are these?" he asked with a sad angry look in his eyes.

"nothing" I said pulling down my shirt.

"Alex, are you cutting again? Did Nathan have something to do with this?" he practically yelled.

"Yeah I am. Yes he does. now can we change the subject?" I said sitting up.

He grabbed my chin and kissed me again and again and held me close to his chest.

"Alex, I love you. don't hurt yourself any more baby, please." he let me go. as kayla knocked.

"Hey pizza is here c'mon"