I Realized This Is My Reality

Heat

Jerome is really making me horny all over again, but I don't want to fuck again. I just want to lay here. Exactly as we are. In silence, but a comfortable silence. Have you ever wanted someone so bad, but you don't know how to show it? I want Jerome more than anything. He gives me that feeling of warmth. I don't know how to explain it, but he does something to me. When I'm with him I never want that moment to end. When I'm not with him all I can think about is him. He makes things worthwhile. "Baby?", Jerome says so softly against my skin it sends a chill down my spine. "Yes bae?", I try to say just as softly, but it just makes me sound like I'm four because my voice is already soft as hell. "I'm gonna go to sleep okay?", he said even softer this time, but with a rasp in his voice. I thought he was gonna say something else, I just smiled to myself and laid there as he wrapped his arms around me and rested his head on the same pillow as mine. I closed my eyes and breathed in his existence before drifting off to sleep as well.

*dream*

"Honey, mommy and daddy are okay. Shawn is fine too.", Momma said as she reached out to grab my face. "Momma I miss you guys so much, I promise I'm gonna get the guys who did this to you guys. They'll pay ten times worse.", I say to momma. I look at her face that was starting to get blurry but became more visible again, but she was smiling she had a terrified look on her face. I turned and seen a gun pointed at me, a guy in a pink ski mask says, "Ten times worse my ass bitch. You're next." I shut my eyes, "Do it then you dumb fuck. Once I die I'm haunting you and everyone even slightly related to you. I'm gonna make all of you want to commit suicide but can't. I'll make you suffer in ways you don't think is possible!"

"Baby? Wake up. It's just a dream.", I said trying to shake Mehlanie. She's been cursing under her breathe and fidgeting for a while now. She opened her eyes and tears started falling. I grabbed her and pulled her closer to me sitting up so she was kind of in my lap. "It's alright baby. It was just a dream. I'm right here, no one's gonna hurt you I promise. I got you baby." , I said to her while rocking her back and forth trying to wipe away her tears that just kept falling. I hate seeing her cry. Everytime I see her cry my heart feels like it's dropping to my stomach. "I seen momma.", she managed to get out in between breaths. I held her tighter when she said that because I know how hard it's been for her. She's been trying to act like she's okay, but I know she's not. She's not the type to let people feel sorry for her. Every Time someone asks if she's okay she'll smile and say she's fine, but I can see past that smile. I know she's falling apart, and I'm doing my best to help her cope. I look down at her to see her eyes closed, and her breathing slowing down a bit so I put my head back and close my eyes again.

I wake up to Mehlanie still in my arms holding on to my right arm. Her eyes are wide open, she looks up at and smiles a little, "Good morning daddy." I reached down and kissed her forehead, "Goodmorning baby girl".  She hops off me and starts taking her shirt off and boxers, grabbing a towel, and going into the bathroom. I lay there for a bit before deciding to get up. I grab my phone and look at the time that reads 1:02. It didn't even feel like it. I got up and went into the bathroom to pee cause this morning wood ain't no joke. I walk in there to see Mehlanie butt naked brushing her teeth. I pull Jr. out and lift the toilet seat up and letting it all out. Mehlanie finishes brushing her teeth and hops in the shower purposely brushing her titties on my arm while hopping in. She giggled and cut on the shower. I chuckled and went to brush my teeth. I'm gonna shower after I drop her off at graduation practice. Before I could finish washing off my toothbrush Mehlanie steps out of the shower and grabs my arm pulling me in then shutting the glass door. She smiles then tries to get on her toes so she could kiss me, but I had to bend down slightly so she'd be able to reach me. I reached out and grabbed the loffa and started rubbing it on her body. Her back was turned to me so the water was hitting her chest. Just looking at her is so peaceful, so graceful. She turned around and smiled at me, grabbing the loffa out of my hand now rubbing it down my bare chest. I reached down and closed the drain so the water could fill up. I added some stuff Mehlanie had that looked like it would make bubbles and I was right it did. I sat down and pulled her down in between my legs.