"Ugh my head" I groaned as I got up from my bed. I checked the time and it was 11:00am. I went to check my phone like I usually do. I had so many calls and text messages from Sarah. As I read them the events of last night came flooding into my head.
I sighed, I was moving on from him but seeing him again I realized that i love him way too much. I finished reading the thousands of messages that Sarah sent me and sent her a quick message that I didnt feel well and decided to go home early. I checked my other messages and there was a message from an unknown number.
Unkown: Hey, umm we need to talk..
I furrowed my eyebrows 'who can this be' I thought to myself. I decided that they probably had a wrong number so I only left it on read. I got up from bed and decided to atleast change even though I wasnt in the mood to be doing anything.
As I was changing there was only one person that was on my mind Jungkook. His big doe eyes that have little stars on them. His beautiful smile that I love with his bunny teeth. As much as I want to I could never get over him and that just made me more frustrated then ever. I was deep in thought when my phone vibrated again.
Unknown: y/n please answer it's me jungkook. I really need to talk to you.
"What the- how did he get my number" I said to myself. I sighed I didnt know what to do or say. I sent a text back.
y/n: how did you get my number? and I'm pretty sure we dont have anything to talk about so leave me alone.
jungkook: please I want to explain what happened a year ago. I'll be at the cafe where we usually hanged out, at 3 please go:/
I sighed, the frustration started to kick in again. I wasnt sure if I should go or not. He hurt me way too much,I'm afraid that I will never move on from him.
-4 hours later-
My palms were sweaty, my legs are shaking as I walk to the cafe. I was only wearing a hoodie and jeans. I didnt really care to put some make up on since I knew I would probably cry like the baby I am.
I got to the cafe and saw jungkook sitting at a booth. It was the same booth we would always sit in when we would go on dates. I sighed and just stood there scared not really sure if I should be there or not but I didnt have time to run away jungkook saw me and stood up to greet me.
"Y/n you came" he looked surprised. I stared into his big doe eyes almost getting lost in them. I walked over to him and sat down.
"I ordered you a drink, I hope you dont mind." He said nervously
"Its fine" I looked down at my fingers as I fiddled with them.
"Y/n?"
"Hm" I looked up at him to be met with his eyes once again.
"How have you been?" He asked I scoffed at his answer. I dont know why but just that question made me mad.
'How can he be so casual about this' i thought to my self.
"Jungkook I'm just here to get closure about what happened a year ago. I want to move on with my life and not think about you every second of my day. I just want to start a new chapter so can you please just skip the small talk and get to explaining." I said sternly.
"Oh um sure." Jungkook said nervously. He cleared his throat and started to explain
"So um i dont know how to start.."
He looked down and cleared his throat again
" So I never meant to hurt you y/n. Please believe me she made me do it she was crazy."
I looked at him confused. 'What does he mean?' I didn't want to interrupt him so I stayed quiet.
"She kept on telling that if I didn't break up with you she was going to hurt you. I didn't want to, I thought I would be able to protect you but then she threatened to kill you that day And I didn't know what to do so I got really drunk and she found me and I guess I gave in because I was afraid I didn't know what do I never meant to hurt y/n. I didn't even sleep with her that night. I kicked her out right after you left. y/n can we at least be friends I still love you."
He now had tears rolling down his cheeks. Everything felt fake as if it weren't true it didn't feel true 'kill me?' I questioned. I looked down while he quietly cried in front of me. I didn't know Jennie was that crazy. I DIDNT THINK SHE WAS CRAZY AT ALL. I sighed
"Jungkook I don't know this sounds way to weird and crazy. And if that was the case why didn't you tell me hm? We could've resolved the problem together instead of you cheating one me the way you did. I want to believe but I can't. Ill forgive you since I need to move on with my life."
"Can we at least be friends?" He asked again. I look into his doe eyes. I wanted to say yes. I wanted him in my life, but I knew that if I did I would never stop being in love with him.
"I don't know Jungkook I have a lot of thinking to do. I um.... I think it's best if I go now thank you for explaining."
he looked at me with disappointment in his eyes I waved to him as I walk away. Not knowing how to feel. 'Should I believe him' I was confused with everything. I needed a drink
I ended up going to a bar nearby. I drank and drank and drank until I wasn't able to drink anymore. I ended up leaving but everything was blur after that.
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