No one heard my cries
I was silent and scared
Though i wanted to scream
Suffocating with shame
And maybe im to blame
This time I fought
I pushed and scratched
This time I cried
Riddled with shame
'Cause maybe im to blame
Only at night a silent tear cries
In those quiet moments my soul screams
I cant breathe
I drag a blade across my skin
To wipe away those sins
I try to starve my demons
I try to purge my pain
Still choking on shame
Because I'm to blame
Will I learn to breathe again
Will my heart beat again
How do I heal my wounded heart
How do I live with a broken heart
How?
How can I if it was all my fault
May I scream? May I cry? May I hurt?
May I wisper that i wasn't my fault?
May I believe that I can heal
May I believe the I am worth it
The beautiful and imperfect
May I say that Im in pain
May I say that I was a victim
May I say I was abused
May I let go of the shame
And scream that I was not to blame
Now may I
Because I need to
Because I want to
write this chapter and start living the rest of my story
