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Chapter 4

Another day of school. I let out a loud sign. I head to my bathroom and do my daily routine.

I open my closet to decide what to wear.
Black ripped jeans, dusty pink tank top, pair of vans and a black baggy jacket will do. I really don't like being all fancy. I prefer just keeping it simple.

I don't wear make up at all, I keep it natural. I put my hair in a half up, half down style.

Grabbing my bag I head downstairs.
I'm shocked to see what I'm seeing now... Mom is making breakfast. Is she okay ? She never makes breakfast for us. It's probably just for her. But looking at the kitchen table, she set it up for two people..and there's only two people living in this house.

Im worried. I know I should be happy but this is unlike her. She probably hit her head somewhere or something.

"Hey munchkin " she says pulling me in an awkward hug, squashing me. 
"Breakfast will be ready in a few "

What's going on. Am I dreaming.?
Ouch ..I guess I'm not from feeling the pain when I pinch myself.

I honestly have no words. I just sit by the table looking at mom.
Why is she smiling? Did she get a man?  Thats the only explanation right? 
She put a plate of food in front of me and a plate for her too.

"Are u fine mom? " I ask with concern.
"Yes I am, I'm more than fine I'm good  "she says in a smile

All I can do is look at her while she's eating. This is all new. She never cooks and we barely talk. But now she's actually talking to me, smiling and even made breakfast.

She puts her cutlery on the table and release a loud sign.
She looks at me with an expressionless face "Look, I'm really trying here. I'm trying to be a good mother but all u do is just stare at me like I'm crazy " she says

"I'm just so- " I say but she cuts me off
"Confused, I know. I haven't told u this, but I've been going for anger management "she says holding my hands in hers from across the table.

"I've been angry for too long and I've realised that drowning myself in booze won't help me in any way. I wanna change , for you and myself. It was very selfish of me and unfair for being a bad mother to you. You did nothing, and don't deserve this. " she says as tears cloud her eyes.

I stand up and hug her very tight , feeling tears coming down my face. "I love you baby girl "she mumbles in my shoulder.
That caught me off guard. She has never told me that ,ever. Do I say it back?  She is my mom but I never thought those words would come out of her mouth.
"I love you too mom " I say very softly and she pulls me more to her.

Bryson Tiller's Don't plays and I realise its my phone ringing. We pull away from our embrace and I see that Alicia is calling.

"Hey Nat, wanna ride to school. Don't know why I asked...I'll be there in a few.
"Okay thanks bestie " I say and just after that hung up.

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I'm now sitting in Mr Finn's English class taking down some notes. Well, trying to take down some notes, I really can't concentrate, I have a lot on my mind.

The door in class opens and looking up I see its Andrew, Andrew Williams. Class started like 15 minutes ago and he doesn't even bother to apologise or spare a glance at Mr Finn.

He just goes to the back where he's usual place is and slouch on his seat looking at his phone.

Mr Finn just glared at him and continued with the lesson.

Andrew and I never got along. Well I never liked him. I just don't like guys who are cocky all the time.

I mean yeah its sexy when a good looking guy is cocky every once in a while. But just everything about Andrew says 'yeah I'm handsome they'll understand or do it for me '

Yes Andrew is good looking. He's those mysterious guys. You never know what's wrong with them or how they feeling. He's got messy dirty blonde hair, always falling on his face. Bright blue eyes, tall ,oh and he's always wearing black leather jackets.

I go back to listening to Mr Finn and suddenly I feel something small hit my back, but I just ignore it. Looking beside me I see its a piece of paper.

I close my eyes in annoyance "gosh I hope is not Andrew " I mumble under my breath. Another piece of paper comes flying across me and I smirk that it didn't touch me. Nice try bitch-
And I feel another piece of paper hit my cheek.

"Would you stop! " I say very loudly unexpectedly ,turning to Andrew with a pissed expression.

This is what Andrew always does. In all the classes we have together ,he always finds a way to annoy me.

Ever since I've turned him down when he asked me out, he's been on my neck like a flippin fly , asking why I don't like him.

Andrew has the mentality that all girls love him and want to sleep with him. Well sorry but I'm not those whores.

And besides that I don't want my first boyfriend to be a player, or fuck boy. Someone who's just gonna sleep with me and not really love me.

Seeing my reaction, Andrew smirks in satisfaction and winks at me and I just roll my eyes. Turning around to focus on the lesson (again) ,Mr Finn is standing infront of me with his arms crossed.

"Since its pretty obvious you and Mr Williams there have some chemistry going on,so you guys can pair up for the assignment I'm about to hand out.

What! "Mr Finn pls don't, Andrew and I don't get along and - " I practically beg to him but he cuts me off 
"Well I guess you are going to have to learn to get along " I groan in annoyance. I can't believe that just happened. I'm pretty sure I'll be doing all the work.

The bell rings, signaling that it is now lunch. I quickly grab my stuff and go to my locker.

On my way there someone taps my shoulder and I turn to see Andrew.

"So where are we gonna discuss our  project?" he says in a smile while walking next to me.

I just ignore him,too pissed to talk to him and continue to my locker. He thinks this is a joke. I bet we wont be 'discussing' the project. He'll just be annoying the hell out of me.

I reach my locker and put my books in.
"How about the café down the road ?" he asks leaning his one arm against the locker beside mine.

Someone clears their throat behind me and I look to see Alicia. I instantly smile seeing how she is looking at Andrew because he's leaning against her locker.

Alicia doesn't like Andrew too. Same reason as mine but accept the fact that he actually bugs me and her and Andrew barely exchange greetings.

Andrew instantly moves back and Alicia puts her stuff in her locker.

"I was thinking we grab our lunch and sit by the fountain today, you know, to avoid drama. "I say to her 

"I'm so sorry but I actually have something to do right now." she says in a frown. And I frown too.

"How about afterschool we go together? "she asks.

"I have to meet up with this douchebag " I say rolling my eyes, referring to Andrew. He smiles in satisfaction. 
It's so weird seeing him smile, he barely does that.

"You can come over to my house this evening " I tell her.

"Cool , then we can catch up "she says in a smile and hugs me then quickly rushes the other way.

"I'm a douche bag now "he asks as if offended.
"Oh shut it " I say and close my locker ,heading towards the cafeteria.

"So afterschool ? "he asks me
"Yeah whatever "I say dismissing him.

Stepping into the cafeteria, I notice Jessie and Linda already sitting at a table and they wave me over.

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What do you think of Andrew?
And mom? 

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With love Nosiijay