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[HOW DO I HANDLE THIS?!?]

TIME SKIP BROUGH TO YOU BY ME BEING A LAZY FUCK

I still didn't know how to handle the situation, I mean I was still 14 in a half. I was so young, Amy and I both were and yet we were pregnant. I sighed as I came home I got home later from the doctors with Amy as I seen everyone at the table waiting for me, my mother always made them wait for me before they ate, so that we could eat as a family.

"Welcome home sweetheart," My mother said as my siblings turned to look at me. They were in the back of the table near the door view, and my parents were in the front. I smiled awkwardly as I set my violin down and sat in my seat. My siblings sighed in relief as they started eating. My mom smiled and began to eat as my father continued to ignore us and read his newspaper. 

"Hey dad, anything good in there today?" I jokingly asked as he lowered his newspaper. "Oh, we can finally eat?" He asked as he ignored my question and put down the paper and began eating. I sighed. My dad and I weren't very close, hell no one was close to him in this family. 

He wasn't abusive- I mean unless he got drunk, but aside being sober he just ignored us like we were nothing to him. He was basically a workaholic. Only worked all day, then came home to eat, watch some tv and then sleep. I swear I never see him half the time, nor do I even see him smile unless it's a tv show he's watching. Otherwise, he's never actually smiled at us. 

My mother shot him a glare as she scoffed and continued eating. My brother and sister stayed quiet. We knew he wasn't worth it to argue with, I was still surprised my folks were even together. Half the time I'm pretty sure it's because of the money for my dad. 

"So how was band practice today sister?" Tommy asked smirking. I blushed and shot him a look. My sister snorted as she began laughing a bit. My father raised a brow as he stopped eating for a second and wiped his mouth with a napkin.

"What's so funny about band practice?" He asked annoyed as my siblings stopped laughing and focused on their food again. "Answer me!" He shouted as we flinched. He was also too big on the yelling.

"Nothing father, Tommy was just joking around, don't pay attention to him" I muttered as my father narrowed his eyes. "Was she slutting it up again Tommy?" He asked turning to him. My eyes widened in shock, as much as everyone else's.

"Devin!" My mother shouted in shock.

"Dad it was a joke, Jesus Christ don't talk about your own daughter like that," he responded as my dad rolled his eyes and continued eating as if I didn't have feelings like a NORMAL human.

I shook my head and stood up running to my room as I heard my mother and siblings call after me. I quickly locked the door as I slid down. I didn't want to be in this family anymore, not with him around. I felt my heart sink as I began sobbing, I remembered I was pregnant and I knew I couldn't live here anymore. Once he found out, I would be kicked onto the streets.

I bit my lip as I wiped my tears, and started to remember back to what happened at the doctors.

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As Amy and I walked in there were children everywhere. I sighed. I knew this would be my life soon, there was no disease or illness, the hard truth is I was pregnant. I knew what it was. As Amy and I checked in we sat down at a kids table.

Eventually we moved when two seats were available. Suddenly a woman appeared and asked me to hold her child as she went to the bathroom. I agreed as I looked at the crying baby smiling softly and hushing him as I looked around the room and saw a toy car on the floor. I asked Amy if she could please grab it for me.