Distract Me

The Beginning

Waking up in the morning was always the same, my precious sleep would be interrupted by an annoying ringing from my phone. I blink my eyes a couple of times to remove the sleep from my eyes. Usually I am a morning person and I can jump out of bed with a quick jolt but today was a unusual day. I wasn't feeling like myself, I kinda just stared at my ceiling thinking about nothing in particular. Reluctantly I trudge myself into my bathroom to shower off the feeling of sleep. 

"Gabi darling your going to be late for school. This isn't like you sweetie" My mother bellows from down the hallway as she makes her way down to the kitchen. I gradually make my way down to the kitchen to have breakfast before I go. Without realising a sulken expresseion upon my face. "Honey are you okay?" mom snaps me out of my thoughts with her question. "Huh... yeah just not feeling like myself" The words slip out of my mouth quietly.  "Well your probably just worried about starting your last year darling" My dad sends me a comforting smile as he sips his coffee while my mom eats her oatmeal, this being a norm at this time in the morning. "Don't see why she should be nervous at all" my mom chimes in as I eat breakfast. 

I give them both a small smile as I can practically see them already seeing me graduting med school "following in their footsteps" like my sister. From a young age I was already expected to become a doctor in the future and I always thought thats what I wanted as well but as applying for college comes closer was I having thoughts? Did I want to become a doctor because I wanted to or was it just expected of me. 

"I guess just cause college applications need to be started I'm kinda nervous" Was this really why I'm nervous? "Don't worry honey you have nothing to worry about of course your going to get into med school, your father and I can pull some strings for when you have to do your internship everything is already for you" She said it so easily like she's been planning this since my birth, well to be honest she really has. "Thanks mom thats really reassuring" I smiled a semi fake smile and continued to eat my breakfast.

"Morning everyone" my sister Rose's gentle voice danced around the kitchen as she placed a hand around my shoulder. "You excited for your last year" She exclaims. Why is everyone more excited than I am? I reply with a small nod as I move to clean my dishes. "okay we're going to be late so lets go gabs" I rush to grab my things and jump in the car. "You gonna tell me what's wrong" She says giving me the 'you have to tell me no matter what face' "nothing I'm just not feeling good about this year" I say nonchalantly shrugging her off. "Did mom give you the whole I can't wait for you to become a doctor speech this morning?" She lets out a small giggle. "Listen I know it's a bit intimidating that she goes on and on about you being a doctor potentially a surgeon but deep down she knows....okay deep deep down she knows it's still your life. Don't let her get into your head" Why does she think that's so easy when she's already in there. "Do you know what you want to do if not medicine? I mean that's been your dream since you were a kid" She says breaking the dreading silence.

"To be honest I don't even know if you call it my dream when its been more of a standard and expectation my whole life" I huff out of frustration. "Gabs what do you mean? it's not an expectation just do what you want to do, they dont have to live it you do. Look it may be hard but I hate to think that your going to put yourself through years of stress and anxiety just to keep the image of your parents" After her little big sister speech we were silent the rest of the way to school. Rose dropped me off to literally the last place I want to be right now. "You know if you really don't feel like being here today you can always ditch, you have perfect attendance anyway" She laughs. "Your not helping" I slam the door and make my way to my friends. 

Walking up towards the entrance I'm stopped by a 5'9 boy with curly black hair that framed his face, with dark hazel brown eyes and sunkissed skin. Jay Santos. One of my best friends since middle school. Walking beside him was Ariel King a 5'5 petite girl who's stick straight golden locks (contary to her name) was slicked back into a high pony tail. Her smile doubled in size and her light brown eyes light up as she tackles me into a hug. "Omg I've missed you so much how was Hawaii?" I beamed at the blonde. "Amazing as always when this year is over we should all go for our senior trip" I exclaimed. "Good luck telling that to Dr Alvarez" The tan boy sarcastically said while opening his arms for a hug."Very funny but I'm definately going away after this year I can't finish high school without a trip with my best friends" I proudly say to them. After home room we walk towards class together as we continue to chat, laughing and talking about our respective holidays.