She stood in front of a mirror as she watched the world fade,like the beginning of an apocalypse the world went from bright to shades of gray. A girl who had lost her self, time and time before, as it crumbled she told herself to breath, but she dies inside each time more and more."
Sometimes it felt like when i would find something good It was always hard to accept So I had a tendency to push those I cared about away, and I don't know why I would do that, maybe I didn't want to bother those with my thoughts or it was because when i told one of my close friends she made fun of me.
i just went with it was just how I have always been, Concept Conception consists misfortune persist So one runs Forward into the mist, well metaphorically speaking as I was starting into the mirror, chatting to myself in my head.I had always felt wrong even though I knew i was always right,
Finally I have considered giving up, on a fight, just to agree and be mask behind the porcelain painted on smile. It was a battle I knew deep down inside I would never win Everything I was doing in life it felt like it was mocking me, laughing at me,
Standing in front of me like a colorful silhouette, Mimicking me as i moved, it followed Gracefully almost elegant until one day it had disappeared and no matter the situation I was in I wasn't innocent. Almost like I was in a routine state of mind, like it was programmed in a way.
Id wake up eat breakfast, then proceed to brush my teeth monday through friday this cycle repeats, i would shower, get dressed, starting with my hand in one sleeve, as i stand there for minutes deciding on sweatpants or jeans.
In a manner I'd grow tired of as I see myself growing unhappy School, class, lunch, class, home and repeats, as I'm only staying strong for my sister , she wouldn't understand, because she had autism, and had saved me many times before.
she was always there, and it wasn't far for her to have taken a charge she didn't understand because she thought she was protecting me .. Damn it.
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A Girl They Called YOLANDA
Horror*BASED on true events* Real life events, this life, the year of 2006- 2010 NOW.. imagine losing a loved one through suicide or a friend through car accidents a person you cared for who was there one day , and in a blink of an eye they were...
