MUTE LOVE (JIKOOK)

who's right?

(Jimin's p.o.v)

What the hell just happened?!

Who was that guy?! Why did he know my name?! Why did he protect me?!

He must have gotten a dare too... why would he be sweet with the mute-fat-gay kid who he didn't even know?

You know what? It must be a dare again. No one ever did this for me just by kindness. The last guy who tried protecting me ended up trying to rape me the day after.

I already know it... I can't trust anyone but myself... and even myself... I end up hurting either way.

I look at myself in the bathroom's mirror.

You know what? Maybe it's all true... why would everyone say it if it wasn't? I lift my shirt and looked at my body. A tear silently rolled down my face.

I search in my pant pocket to find my only friend. When I put my hand on the little blade I sigh, taking it out.

I bring up my sleeve and sigh again seeing all the not so old scars decorating my arm and wrist. I put the blade down on my arm and do the only thing making me feel human. The familiar pain shoots through my wrist and in a certain way, reliefs me.

Maybe I should listen to them... after all. What's there still left for me to experience... I've already felt all the pain I could feel. Maybe it'll relief me if I do it...

Then my mother's face comes to my head.

(Flashback 3 years ago)
I was crying on my bed head buried in my pillow thinking about what this guy had said to me.

"How can you be so fat?! You look like fucking trash! Pussy! "

I cried harder until I heard a knock on my door. I didn't answer.

- sweety i know you're there... open up so we can talk will you?

I still didn't answer.

The door opened soon after revealing my mother with a worried look on her face.

- oh sweety come here.
She said opening her arms widely while sitting on my bed.
I immediately ran into her arms crying on her shoulder.

- it's okay sweety... you need to be strong for me okay? Don't let what people say come to you like that okay? They all are only jealous of you. You're just too perfect for them and they are stuck up to their ass.

I chuckled at my mother using bad words, she never does it. Only when she is really angry about something.

I love her... she can always bring back a smile to my face...
(End of the Flashback)

I look back at myself in the mirror starting to cry my heart out.

"I'll be strong for you mom... at least, I'll try."