Kenidee
It was the day before Kentrell started tour and we got into a big argument over some stupid stuff
We haven't talking since but I still text and call him just to see if he's okay but I end up calling Montana because he never answers to me
He was on his last week of tour and I was trying to talk to him but him being hardheaded and stubborn wouldn't listen
I just gave it up cause I wasn't about to kiss his ass AT ALL
We can talk about this when he gets back
As long as he riding for me I'm riding for him
Right now I was at his house cleaning up before I went grocery shopping for him
Just cause we not talking don't mean I'm not going to do for him still and support
I got his favorite snacks from Snax and Walmart
I had made him a little care box with some Gucci slides, hot fries, candy, blue Gatorade, and some other stuff with a note
I fixed his bed before going downstairs and putting a candle that smelled of Carmel
I let the candle melt filling the house before going to delivery the package
I came back and blew the candle out and just watched Netflix for the rest of the day while making packages for orders
Before all of this, I had nothing
I never knew my mom and dad and I was in and out of foster care and orphanages
Each time I was seduced, rapped, and more
Anything you could think of that was bad I had been through it all
Kidnap, rape, abuse, homeless, critical injuries
My life now was better but I still went through a lot
But I'm glad that I have Kentrell
He makes all of my worries go away and makes me into a better person
Him and the gang were the only people I trusted because they gave me reason to trust them and always had my back, so I knew I could count on them
Sometimes I get tired of having to come and get Kentrell because he has done something stupid and the first person they call is me
Dee come get YB
Dee YB is tha' hospital
Dee Kentrell passed out
Like DAMN !
Can I get a break !
No one knows how much I go through on a daily
To Stressing to Taking care of Kentrell
And I feel like as his girlfriend I have to do certain things but he needs to know how to control himself to the were he doesn't get out his body or anything
I do it anyways without complaining because I love him and I wouldn't want him in a bad position even if we're on good terms or not
I still want him safe
It makes me paranoid everytime he leaves me in the morning because I'm not there to make sure he is alright
I act the way I act sometimes because I have borderline personality disorder
I was afraid to tell Kentrell because I was afraid of loosing the one person that meant the most to me in the world to leave because of my crazy actions
I tried to control it as much as I can but it's hard when you have a nigga that lays on his ass all day and smoke with his friends
But I get it because he works hard with his touring but the least he could do was wash his own clothes or something or make his own breakfast instead of waking me up out of my slumber on my workday to make him something to eat
As much as I tried to contact him he just left me on delivered and every time I called he declined
His birthday was in next week and I wanted to surprise him with a big birthday party and something afterwards
