Caught in a web - Spiderman x reader

We'll always have each other

It's a tragedy the way he loves you,

Peter was staring at you again but this time he could debate it wasn't his fault. How could it be when you looked like a goddess amongst men and could even rival Aphrodites beauty. The soft morning sunlight was creeping through the window and shining down onto your face making it look like you wore a halo. Your hair tumbled in waves from your head and framed your face perfectly you wore a frown on your face. He let out a low laugh when was the last time he had seen you smile. When was the last time you were at peace with the world, peter tried to rack his brain it must've been before the argument. He remembered before then your smile your eyes oh those beautiful eyes that shone brighter then the night sky and were as violent as crashing waves. He would always stare into those e/c eyes and get lost in them. "Peter" you said snapping him out of his daze. "I think I know how to defeat the elementals" you said a glimpse of that forgotten smile returning to your face. "Really" he said you nodded and started explaining the plan to him. But he knew it was a long shot and some of you wouldn't survive. He started memorising the details of your face, he knew if it came down to it and it was you or his life at stake he would always choose you no matter what, you had to survive he couldn't think of a world without you in it.

It's a trade by that star crossed lovers will read about a hundred years later

You were pacing in your room your head pounding against your skull and your vision going blurry. This plan had to work if it didn't.... you shook your head you didn't want to think about what could happen your eyes swelled up with tears and you collapsed onto your bed letting sorrow overtake you. "Y/n" you heard a soft voice say from the doorway looking up you were met with messy brown hair and piercing blue eyes "hey Beck" you said wiping the tears from your face "what's wrong" he said pulling you into a tight hug and letting you cry onto his shoulder. You felt the pitiful glance he threw your way. "I told Peter I loved him, but he rejected me and now I might die on this mission. I don't want to die I want to live, I want to dance under the gleaming moon and feel the forest air take over me. I want to swim in the deepest oceans and let Poseidon's wave take over me. I want to grow old and feel my bones creek and my mind be wiser then anything" beck was awestruck you were both beautiful and poetic. Thoughts spun around in his head he could use someone like you on his team. Looking into your eyes he knew that wasn't the only reason, he was falling for you.

The rest of that night you and Beck talked and you enjoyed his company ending up forgetting about Peter and the heartache he caused you. "Thanks Beck that really helped" you said. At that perfectly timed moment Peter decided to burst through the door with Fury "get suited up missions in an hour" Beck had a smug grin on his face as he noticed you looking away from Peter. "is their something I'm missing" fury said but beck was quick to wipe the smile off his face.

Peter felt devastated, you barely could look at him. He had caused this heartache in both you and him. A heartache is a whole-body response, from the stress systems to the heart and brain function. We are born to make loving bonds and to suffer when they break. This is nature's way of teaching us to stay loyal, to stay in love, and it is brutal by biological and evolutionary necessity. Some try to avoid it through casual love, yet then they miss out on the kind of bonds that keep society functioning and well. To love is a risk and so, if another takes that step with you, they are serious and placing their heart in your onwards care. Peter looked at you his heart breaking again, he didn't know if he could take that risk. Not when he had fallen so in love with you.

Well now really when we go back into falling in love. And say, it's crazy. Falling. You see? We don't say "rising into love". There is in it, the idea of the fall. And it goes back, as a matter of fact, to extremely fundamental things. That there is always a curious tie at some point between the fall and the creation. Taking this ghastly risk is the condition of there being life. You see, for all life is an act of faith and an act of gamble. The moment you take a step, you do so on an act of faith because you don't really know that the floor's not going to give under your feet. The moment you take a journey, what an act of faith. The moment that you enter into any kind of human undertaking in relationship, what an act of faith. See, you've given yourself up. But this is the most powerful thing that can be done: surrender. See. And love is an act of surrender to another person. Total abandonment. I give myself to you. Take me. Do anything you like with me. See. So, that's quite mad because you see, it's letting things get out of control. All sensible people keep things in control. But love is something that should never be controlled

-allan watts