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Cards

She says,
And tells
Yet she won't believe Her.
She lies,
And says
Yet again she won't believe Her.
And now she feels lost ,
Even more than she already was
Her heart, beats unsteady
Her mind confused
Her eyes blurred,
Clouded with her tears.
Her thoughts are everywhere
She doesn't belong anywhere.
She's neither too stupid or too smart
She understands well
But this...
she can't.
Why,
She talks
When,
She knows
It's,
No use
Because no one
Would believe
That she's hurting
That her mouth is screaming when it remains closed
Her smile is fading
Her eyes are tearing
Her body is shaking
She, is dying.
But no one sees that.
Because out of all the cards
She was dealed with a Joker
...
...
She wishes...
She hopes...
Motivations,
Dreams,
Inspirations
None of which can be seen in her eyes...
Realization
It hits...
'Oh... it must be my punishment'
She thinks she might be a descendant of Cain
Fated to wonder on Earth forever
That's why her wishes and prayers were never made
Maybe 'HE' doesn't like her
They say HE's loving...
Yet she knows
That is only one side
To his many faces.
Humans believe in the GOOD too much that they forget,
It wouldn't exist without an opposite.
...
For not being faithful
Not praying much.
...
She doesn't blame HIM at all
Yet she wonders why she hasn't helped even just Her
her life she offers
HE won't take
...
...
'It's no use...
No one sees her
No one hears
For she is but a part of another world
A world no one would know of existence.
She, is the world.
...
She has waited for too long
Too long for her but maybe not to others
But she's close...
Very close...
And so she Forgets...
She explains...
But up until now...
No one understands at all...
Why she did
Everything she did.
...
...
...
The lies
Never ending
Pain
Keeps gaining
Her thoughts
Keep screaming

"Oh just end this." -baka_shino