It's been 6 months since I last saw you.
It's been 6 months since I talked to you.
It's been 6 months since the day you said you wanted to be free.
It's been 6 months, and I'm still not in glee.
I want you to come back to me.
"Hey Hina. How's life going so far?" a friend of mine ask
"Still alive." I answered and put up a fake smile
"how are things with Jaemin?" she asks, smilimg widely as I chuckled and also put up a smile, but a fake one.
"Fine." I answered, even though we're not.
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We we're friends since we we're 13, not really close friends but we know each other and help each other from time to time. By the days we turned 18, weird emotions bloomed us together and we started to become closer by heart.
I never imagined that a guy like Jaemin would like a girl like me. I was just a daisy in a field of roses. And I guess he's the one guy who would pick the daisy over a bunch of pretty roses.
He confessed to me on October and I confessed to him in Novemeber.
It was in the middle of December when we started dating officially. We're not a couple but we act like one.
We do things couples do, we hold hands, we hug, we go on dates, we kiss and many more other couple stuff. But we don't have a label but it's okay, it doesn't matter, until one day it does.
We've been "exclusively dating for 8 months. And we we're doing fine, your best friend, Jeno told me we we're perfect for each other. My friends like you; my family knows you but doesn't approve of us being a couple yet; my dogs like you, well, they like everyone. You're all I wanted. And I thought we'd last a lifetime. That's what I thought.
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"Can you promise me something first before I started talking?" he said and let out his pinky to me, I stare at him, hesitant.
"What is it?" I ask
"That you won't react and you will let me finish my statement before reacting."
"Uhh...?"
"Pinky promise me." he said, like a child and I said
"Okay. I promise." I then intertwined our pinky fingers together and stare at him, waiting for the next thing he's gping to say even though I have this gut feeling what would it be. And surprisingly, my guts were right.
"I'm confused about my feelings towards you." he said, I stayed quiet and let him coninue
"It feels like, I have many more things I wanted to do with my life. I feel like I have so many things to prioritize more, and I feel like I'm so distant. I don't know. I'm confused, I want space." he said with his face on the palm of his hands while he bowed down, not even looking at me.
I couldn't speak, I just stare blankly at the cars passing by.
It was complete silence. I didn't know what to say. It feels like my heart stopped, but I'm still alive.
I felt him staring at me, I turned my head and caught his eyes. I felt like my heart sunk to the floor when i caught your brown eyes staring at me. It was full of emotion, full of sadness, full of guilt. I smiled and joked
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All You Had To Do Was Stay
Historia Corta"Stay, hey, all you had to do was stay, had me in the palm of your hand then, why'd you had to go and lock me out when I let you in? Stay, hey, now you say you want it back now that it's just too late, well could've been easy. All you had to do was...
