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I felt tired.I felt scared.I felt drained.It had been a week.A week since my boyfriend started becoming more distant towards me.The more time passed by the harder it got.
We were only in high school and I definitely wasn't expecting this relationship to last a long time.But I definitely didn't want it to end this quick.
It was already Sunday and it had been four days since me and Johnny last talked.I felt scared considering the fact that he would text pretty much everyday.But I decided not to think much of it, but in the pit of my stomach there was this uneasy feeling.
I got tired of overthinking so I decided to call my best friend, Victoria, and confess to her about my thoughts.On the third ring she picked up.
"Hey hoe why'd u call?We always text.You never call unless it's important.So c'mon tell me whats up."
I sighed.She knew me too well and it would be extremely hard for me to lie to her.So i just decided to tell her how i had really been feeling these past few days.
"Look I'm scared.Something is happening between me and John and I don't like it.It's not only the fact that we haven't talked in four days.It's just the fact that even when we talked he seemed pretty distant.Pretty cold.I dont wanna overthink but there is this feeling inside of me that I can't explain.I feel like I know our relationship has already come to an end but I just dont wanna accept it."
I heard Victoria sigh from the other end of the phone.I knew she was troubled as well.Whenever I had trouble with boys I would always go to her and she always gave me great advice.But this time I feel like she was even more confused than me about the situation.
"If I was you I wouldn't do anything.I guess I would just wait for him to text and explain himself.I feel like you should give him time and not make him feel like he is obligated to explain the situation to you.Maybe its just a family problem or something going on with his friends.Just dont think much of it."
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And that's what I did.The whole day I kept making myself busy to avoid looking at my phone every two seconds.I put my phone as far away from me as possible so this way I could take my mind off of the situation.And it worked.Until night came.
I was sitting in bed playing games on my phone.I moved my eyes from my phone to the digital clock next to my nightstand.I noticed it was already nearing midnight.
Suddenly I remember I had muted my instagram notifications so I decided to go check it in case someone had texted me.
I noticed on the top right corner there was a number one, informing me that I had received a dm from someone.I clicked on the number and noticed that the dm was sent from the one and only person who I was trying not to think about.Johnny Orlando.
My finger started shaking.I was too scared to open the dm.But I decided that I had to.So I clicked on the dm and immediately started reading it.The dm said:
"Hey y/n.I know we haven't talked lately and I'm sorry.It's just I haven't been feeling well this week.And no, I'm not talking about my health, but about my feelings.Believe me y/n this is hard to say.But I figured I had to.Otherwise it would kinda count as me leading you on.Lately I've been feeling pretty distant.No, I'm not trying to say I don't like you anymore.But just for one week, I wanna pretend as though we're friends.I need at least a week long break from this relationship so I can gather my thoughts and feelings because honestly they are scattered everywhere right now.I know that you will get mad.Hell even sad maybe.But I just need some space.Good night."
As I read the message I felt my heart shatter into pieces.Tears welled up in my eyes and I let them fall down my cheeks.I didn't care.All I felt was sadness.No other emotion whatsoever.But I needed someone.So I decided to text Victoria.
After sending her a screenshot of the text she started comforting me by saying "He only needs a break.You guys aren't broken up" or "He doesn't say he doesn't like you anymore".But I knew all too well that this was the end.There was that feeling again.The feeling that was screaming at me and telling me that it all was over.The guy I loved the most was leaving me and I couldn't do anything to change his mind.
A/N
yep i updated again.*sigh*this imagine is based on experience so yeh.there's a part two to this which i haven't completely finished yet but anyway.we're so close to 2k wtf wtf wtf.i can't even express how grateful i am bruh.
"Wake up, wake up, wake up
We are appalling and we need to stop just watching shit in bed"
