Songs I Write | III

Enemy

If I don't deserve you
I at least deserve an explanation
'Cause I know I hurt you
But if you learned anything, it's I'm never patient
I know I'm acting tongue-tied
Wild-eyed like I was in the beginning
Warned so many times, "run, child"
But I didn't listen 'cause back then I was winning

And I just wanted to give
And I hope you know this
I will never regret the things that I said
I said that I loved
Felt myself grow up
And I know I'm still a child when it comes to us

But I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy
I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy

Such a morbid history
Maybe if you really tried we'd still be
But sure, I'll agree
It was my fault and I lost control when I should've seen

But I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy
I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy

Oh, oh

All the signs that I misread
Literally won't answer my texts
Deleting the messages
Acting like I said zilch, nothing
For months I've been reaching out
And I should be tired, throw in the towel
I'm so exhausted and sore but somehow
I won't stop trying, it's my curse and my power

And I just wanted to give
And I hope you know this
I will never regret the things that I said
I said that I loved
Felt myself grow up
And I know I'm still a child when it comes to us

But I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy
I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy

You used to say I was the best, how I would make you laugh at me
Now all you say is blank spaces, neglected even with you in front of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
Wished we would marry once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy
'Cause I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
All you say is nothing, but I feel you watching for the end of me
After all this time, when you promised you'd always be a friend to me
We were tied in knots once but now I'm alone, you ahead of me

Had me tied down once but now I'm suffocating like an enemy
But I never really thought that you would ever abandon me
Like an enemy