Usagi's Demon

Loneliness

You could say I was amazed of my demon.
It doesn't seem like he wants any harm, however it was for a fact him who set me out on this mission of seeking the light.
Wherever I go, the darkness is always there.
Wu seems okey with it, he hasn't talked in days now after what happened.
I don't really care about my fingers, what matters is survival.
I'm not going to the pit just yet.
"We will set camp here for the night" Wu says and stops.
I nod and sit down.
I get in meditation sitting style and close my eyes.
My thumbs meet my index finger tip, or whatever is left of the fingers, and I chant the sound LAM.
"What are you doing?" Wu asks.
I ignore him and keep going.
I focus on the Root chakra.
I have felt it is under-active and it needs to be open to open all the other chakras.
I open my eyes.
"What does it look like?" I ask him.
"I didn't think Fuzen would try to calm and open the chakras" Wu says.
"Well I do" I say.
"No you don't" I hear Lucard say from deep inside my head.
I sigh and just give up and lie down on my side.
I close my eyes and try to get comfortable.
I feel two arms wraps around me.
My eyes opens in a hurry and my reflexes makes me push myself away.
I turn around, it was Wu.
He looks at me in shock.
"I-I'm sorry" Wu says.
My mean comments somes now, typical me.
"You better be, you pervert Yoshimi" I say determined and cross my arms.
I stare into his eyes, I can see how that response got straight to his heart.
I hurt him, and I feel bad now.
I get up on my feet, I can't stay here, I don't wanna hurt him more.
I run into the woods, as fast as my feet will work.
I reach a little river, it's silent and I like it.
I sit down and wrap my arms around my knees and feel the guilt.
"Why do I have to be so damn mean?" I ask myself.
"He didn't really mean anything to me" I lie.
I let my hand gently touch the water.
"We are bad, we steal and we kill.
The Fuzen are the best, no one can beat us.
Hide your kids and wife, your dearest belongings,
because we roam and kill and conquer,
whatever is closest to you" I sing the Fuzen song.
I grin a little, it's what I should do.
Kill and conquer, it's what I was born to do.
I can feel a cold embraces me, a dark side.
"You won't have to do anything.... Let me control..." Lucard says.
I look at the reflection of myself in the water, how my eyes are black and empty, how big my grin is.
"We steal.... we kill... we torture..." Me and Lucard say together, making a deep voice.
I start giggling.
"USAGI" I hear as Wu is holding my shoulder.
"Look at me! Don't finish the song!" Wu says.
"Whenever there is danger..." I continue.
"USAGI NO I'M NOT GONNA LET YOU" Wu say and shakes me.
"Expec-..."
Wu hugs me.
Tight.
I feel warm.
Everything goes black as I fall into Wu's arm.
Fainted.
Weak.
Worthless.