Silent Bride|| Outlast

Chapter 5

I bite my nails until one of them bleeds a little. I stick my hand out into the sunlight that's coming trough the news paper covered windows. My hands are filthy, just like how I feel, how I look. Eddie wasn't anywhere to be found. I have a chance to escape but the doors were locked shut.
The dress I am wearing is irritating my skin.

I have to get this off... Jesus...
I scratched my skin until it became so red, so much that it starts bleeding. I reach behind my back and pull the cord that leads to a corset. The thing shoots lose and the air let itself on my skin. I sigh in relief and slide the dress off.
Underneath the dress he put me in an old school bra, no padding, old white. Old ripped stockings with garters that look... used. He really thought we were going to get married.

I tip toe around, the floor creeks under my feet. But finally there's a pile of clothing. Of his. Too big blouses but they did it the job. They cover me and it was comfortable!
Hell yeah...
The blouses were also filthy.
I put the thing on and go back to my hiding spot under the sewing table. Was this my life now? Hiding from a man who just wanted to compulsively marry everyone on his path.

"...Hmmm. Close. I can... the smell of my love's arbor. Darling, you can't hide from me" he suddenly walks around really close by.
He looks at the dress on the floor and picks it up, looking at it with sad eyes. "Darling... Don't do this to me..."
He looks around and his eyes scream sadness.
"Darling, let's not be ridiculous. Just come out and let's talk about it...." his voice sounded like he was hurt so much. I bit my nails, pull a hangnail,and pulled my legs closer to my chest.
Oh god...
Feelings bubbled up and I really have the urge to get out and do something. I look around and slowly crawl from under the table.
"Darling..." his head turns and he stares at me with those bright blue eyes. The pain from something in his eyes and it projects it on me. He walks to me and suddenly arms wrap around me, he drops on his knees and presses his head on my stomach. He breaks down crying like a child.
What is this?
I hold my hands up and frown, this was weird.
"Let me love you"
I shake my head And push him off.
I'm not being your wife! I'm not being your stupid whore!
I stamp my foot on the floor and just let my rage out with motion. Slapping his face hard at the end. He does not appreciate it and gets up, looking at his right, he grabs the knife and walks straight up to me.

I stumble back against the wall, his hand wraps around my neck. Poking the knife almost in my neck. His face coming close to mine and his eyes staring into my frightened eyes.
Not again please...

As soon as I close my eyes, his lips smack on mine and he forcefully keeps it that way. He moves his hands and grabs at my shoulders, the fabric of the blouse. While holding the knife in his right hand. We "kiss" for what seems the longest 30 seconds ever. I frown and finally I feel his lips get lose from mine.
My eyes water and I freeze. I can't open my eyes yet, no, I did now want to look at the monster that now just kissed me.
Monster...
The word tumbled trough my head.
I'm also insane....I...
I open one eye and look at him. His face had a plain facial expression, most definitely nothing like the sad eyes i saw before.
"I'll fill you up..."
He whispers to me. I nod and look away, the fear was unbearable.
His hands move to my waist and he pulls me closer. "...I can't wait for the wedding night..."
He then just drops me to the floor and walks away from me. I crawl back against the wall, my hands are shaking. I had to go, but also my stomach felt odd... good odd.... bad odd..

My stomach rumbles and I feel nauseous from starvation. I didn't know how long i had been here.
If I was going to be his wife. Then he had to have food or something. If I just keep my role a bit and just pretend to...love him.
No Ev... keep it out of your mind.
I look around and spot him. Here's where my mentality unstable skills kicked in.
I get up and smiled loving like, touching his shoulders and sitting next to him.
Dear Gluskin...
I lean on my hand and look at him like I'm in love.
Grabbing his hand and putting it on my stomach, making him understand that I'm hungry.
I'm hungry...
He stares at it surprised.
NO NOT PREGNANT!
My stomach rumbles again.
"Oh darling... I'll make you a dinner a woman deserves"