It Gets Better

Part 6

"(Y/N), babe, you don't mean that..." Mike said, walking towards me.

I still loved him, I knew that. 

But I could never trust either of them again, and without trust they were worthless to me.

I was obviously worthless to them.

Before I knew it he was standing next to Kelly, in front of me. He reached up to touch my face, like he always did when I was upset, and something inside me snapped.

I slapped his hand away and decked him square in the nose. It felt good.

"OHMYGOD (Y/N)!!!" Kelly screamed, Mike brought his hands up to his face as he felt his nose. There was blood streaming from both nostrils, and it was already bruising. I'd broken his nose.

I felt strangely accomplished.

As he pulled his hands away to examine his fingers, he saw the blood. His face contorted.

"what the fuck?!" he spat at me.

"Leave. Now." I said, standing my ground. "Delete my number and block me on every social networking site. Don't ever come near me again, either of you. I want you both out of my fucking life. Is that clear?"

They both looked at me.

"You don't mean that..." Kelly said slowly.

"But I do. After all we've been through, I still mean nothing to you. You lied to me for so long, and who knows what else you've lied about. As far as I know, you're both two completely different people, and I do not want to be involved with the people you've become." I replied.

They stared at me again for what must have been the thousandth time that night.

"Leave." I said, softly, and finally.

"Come on, Kelly, let's go this concert is lame as fuck anyways." Mike said and turned to leave. Kelly looked at me, as if hoping I would magically change my mind, but after a few seconds, obediently followed Mike.

I watched as they walked down the hallway and out of the bathroom doors, out of my life. As soon as the doors had shut, I shrunk to the ground. My hands covered my face and the sobs flew freely. I could hardly breathe, my throat burned, and my eyes were so full of tears I could barely see 10 feet in front of me. I was a wreck. 

After a couple minutes, the tears slowed, but the pain was still there, my body still shaking violently.

I still wanted to cry, but I had no tears left.

I wiped underneath my eyes, and I listened for the concert, hoping it would make me feel better.

"We would be nothing without our fans" I could barely make out, in that thick Irish accent. I immediately pictured Niall, god he was beautiful. I smiled to myself, even in the worst of situations, their voices could make me feel better. They were all giving their goodbye speeches.

"Massive thank you to you all and goodnight!" I heard in that slow, Cheshire drawl. Oh shit. The fans would be leaving soon, and rushing through the bathroom before they left.  I'm in the bathroom.

I need to pull myself together.

Fuck.

I had no ride home.

I guess I could call my mom, she'd come and get me.

But she would ask questions, and I wasn't ready to answer them. I didn't want to talk to anybody yet.

I guess I could call a cab, but where the fuck would I go?

Surely Mike and Kelly were still going to the hotel room, I mean, we split the costs so it would only make sense. And there was no way I could stay in the hotel room with them two.

I  stood up, I was still shakey. I had no idea what the fuck I was going to do, or where I was going to end up. I walked myself into a stall, and locked the door.

I heard squeals and rapid conversation as the girls filed in, i couldn't make out what any of them were saying, but they all sounded so happy. That should have been me, with Kelly, if I hadn't searched for them, I probably would still be rushing into the bathroom and fangirling with her, like nothing was wrong.

But that's not an option now, it won't ever be an option again.

Someone pulled on my stall door, ripping from my thoughts.

"There's someone in here." I said, my voice extremely shaky and hoarse.

"Oh ok sorry!" the girl replied. I'll just wait in here till all the fans cleared, it will give me some time to think, and decide what I want to do then.

After all, I now had absolutely nothing to lose.